#revealinguniversesecrets

jadi semua hal yang terjadi di dunia pasti ada sebab dan berakibat pada kejadian lain. layaknya efek domino yang terus berjatuhan dan berpengaruh satu sama lain.
intinya smua itu connected.
semua gerak gerik kita. dan bahkan postingan ga penting ini.

pernyataan diatas lahir, ketika saya berpikir, gimana kalo Mark Chapman (penembak John Lennon) ga nembak mati si Lennon. mungkin cinta Lennon ke Yoko ga akan kekal abadi. karena toh, begonya si Chapman, dia malah membuka jalan tsbt.
katakanlah perasaan orang ga ada yang tau, bisa aja Lennon - Ono cuma sampe 20 tahun kemudian. dan kemudian salah satu dr mereka terjebak cinta lain dan pihak ketiga?
ya ga?
justru dengan meninggalnya Lennon, itu malah membuat cinta mrk smakin kekal.
you got nothing form your jealousy, dude.

see, everything's connecting.....

Alangkah luar biasanya alam.Setiap kali mengalami kejahatan saat itu juga ia membasuhnya dengan kebaikan.Matur nuwun sanget,nggih. - Djenar Maessa

Dan lalu.. ketika bencana erupsi gunung berapi di flores tahun 1815? 11.000 sampai 12.000 orang mati di flores waktu itu. Bahkan saking dasyatnya benua eropa mendapat badai salju di musim panas gara2 bencana ini. Akan tetapi di tahun yang sama, Napoleon Bonaparte sudah melakukan invasi ke Rusia. Waktu itu Rusia udh pasrah bwt nyerah klu Napoleon dateng. Secara Napoleon waktu itu orang yang paling ditakuti di Eropa. Sewaktu Napoleon udh mengirim pasukannya ke Rusia di musim panas, tiba2 badai salju dateng. itulah badai salju yang diakibatkan oleh Indonesia. Ribuan pasukan Napoleon terkubur di tumpukan salju, lengkap dengan senjata dan seragam perang mereka. Dan, jutaan orang di Rusia waktu itu bisa selamat. (sumber: kaskus)

everything's connecting........
how wonderful you are, Universe..

thoughts become reality. choose a good ones.

hello, its me again. talking about shits in my head.

jadi, pernah ga lo merasa menginginkan seuatu dan meyaknii sesuatu sampai suatu saat keyakinan lo dihancurkan oleh sebuah kenyataan.
dan saat kenyataan itu menghampiri lo, lalu apa yang akan lo lakukan dnegan keyakinan lo?

well, im on the middle of them dianatara kenyataan dan keyakinan. dimana keyakinan gue berbanding terbalik (sptnya) dengan kenyataan.
bahwa, mungkin ga ada salahnya kita memelihara kepercayaan itu.
ga ada yang salah dengan percaya.
bener ato salah ujungnya.
kita kan ga tau. belom tau. jadi mungkin yang mesti kita lakuin, adalah berdiam. memegang teguh kepercayaan itu.
daripada ga berpegang.
dan tersesat.
karena masih ada celah kecil. selalu akan ada ce-lah-se-ke-cil apapun itu.....

buat kalian.. yang merasa yakin sm sesuatu, tp kok kyknya universe ga setuju dan meng-approve..
mungkin, yang mesti kita lakuin, cuma bisa sabar, sambil memegang erat keyakinan. berjalan maju terus. sampai disebuah titik, dimana kalian merasa harus nyerah. yaudah nyerah.
karena kita ga pernah tau apa yang Dia bikin buat kita.
kita cuma bisa pasrah. tp percaya aja satu hal. apapun itu, kapanpun itu, bagaimanapun itu, pasti baik adanya.
tapi yang penting.. usaha. :)
Tuhan ga pernah tidur dan ngecewain umatnya yang usaha. :)

idk how to stop wanting something so bad.

seriously, i dont know what universe trying to play....
first, it moved me to him.
then i am dragged to that freaking hole
after all, they left me all alone there.

hello???? seriosly i cannot play this anymore. like am so tired. this is kind of tired that cant be fixxed by sleeping.
im tired of being tired. im tired of wanting something so bad.
im tired i cant do anything, bcs im just gonna ruin everything in the end.
fckfckfck.

*inhale* *exhale*
....

well, im done trying. let me be whatever you plan.
i know you've got the best written plan for me.

but.. just gimme a clue.

this is how i spend my "minggu tenang"

minggu tenang, or lets say, quite week. is the week for student to calm themselves (?? is there anybody panic??) and study more, for final exam.
but, not for me.

this is how  i spent my quite week.

1. Monday : woke up at 10, took a bath, ate, then sleep again. and woke up at 6pm. idk what the hell is wrong with me. 
2. Tuesday : nothing special. woke up at 11. then played internet for whole day.
3. Wednesday : same. 
4. Thursday : went to campus to take additional classes.
5. Friday : went to citywalk, spend my day at kemang.
6. Saturday : (which is today) planning on going to TSM, but it seems delayed, then i am planning to go to Gancit for goelali briefing, fx for focus discussion then kopi keliling exhibition.
7. Sunday : i am planning to excercise some more since long time agoo (before i turn to pig) at GBK, then go to Senen, then attending Kickfest. 

what a lazy week!  am so quite now B) believe me, i am not this busy usually. quite week should be spent by much going out. not studying at all bcs you're gonna be so sick of studying in the next week. and take much much rest so you can charge your energy B)

you are not my bro until you are fully capable in english !

lo.. no im kidding. today i proudly saay, thats my broo!!!!
nope, he didnt win any scientific noble or something. but he just took final report.
and the result is so good. i mean like. he got 3rd rank. comparing me in the high school back there.. i was so dull hehehe

i never help him, like any help, in studyingbut he could make it. thats why i am proud of him.
he got 93 for science (average from physic and biology *.* PHYSIC. DAMNNNNN. )
he got 90 for computer
but unfortunately, he got 76 for english. hmm the first thing i asked to him is, whats your score for englsh btw. but thats okay. im not an advance in english neither :)

therefore, you, my bro, should take science major and not letting your genius brain wasted, please. dont follow my waayyy! make your own path!
i can see a bright future in you.

congrats!! :))

a decade

apa yang bisa terjadi dalam 1 dekade?
well, dalam 1 dekade ada 120 bulan, 120 bulan ada 3600 hari, ada 86400 jam. well, intinya kalo menurut Malcolm Goldwell, saya udh bisa memasteri 8 hal karena hanya dibutuhkan 10.000 jam memasteri satu bidang. (eh tolong ya kalo salah mohon diperbaiki. lama ga nyentuh angka)

dlam 1 dekade kebelakang, i have no idea i will be like this. i mean this whole thing. i dont think i will like and even wanna be a photographer, or even artist. when i was 9, i have no direction to go.
its all still blurry. well, still now. but at least i know where to go.

the conclusion is, when i was 9, i have no idea what would i be. i even dont think i am 19 alredy. time fckin fliessssssss so fasssttt nd i dont feel any changeeeeee.
i am still naive girl. i am still a rule breaker. i am still a toddler who asking her dad to take her higherr
i am still mee and will always be mee.
except, my mind. that getting more complicate and more complicated than beforee.

and i am wondering what would i be in the next ten years. i am making my wayy~~~

men, seriously, i know i can write better than this. but i just dont feel like to.

sing me the song, you got my heart.

cheat sheet for guys. this 5 top songs that you could learn to get your girl's heart right away!

1. You Are My Sunshine (Johnny Cash)
2. Try (Asher Book)
3. Isnt She Lovely (Stevie Wonder)- but i prefer glee cast version, bcs Artie is so cute in performing it.
4. Stupido Ritmo (Float)
5. Karena Kamu Cuma Satu (Naif)
6. and any Frank Sinatra songs

basically girls love cheese. 

Indonesia tuh negara jagoan.

jagoan adalah ketika lo mencari uang, dengan berpindah dari satu bus ke bus lain dan yilet2 badan lo cuma buat nyari sepeser belas kasihan penumpang.

jagoan adalah ketika nyebrang di jalan raya. seenak jidat. berbekal nekat dan percaya diri bahwa diri lo tuh kucing yang bernyawa 9.

jagoan adalah mereka pengguna motor yang merasa dirinya slim eenough dan merasa punya kuasa lebih atas jalanan sehingga seenak jidat nyelap nyelip, even ga mau ngalah sama tronton. berasaskan yang-penting-gue-nyampe-tujuan.

jagoan adalah mereka yang nekat duduk di atas kereta, atau gelantungan di kereta. daripada nunggu kereta selanjutnya.

jagoan adalah mereka yang tinggal di pinggir rel kereta, bersatu dengan tempat sampah dan atau bahkan ga punya tempat tinggal sehari-harinya.

jagoan adalah mereka yang udah digaji tinggi, tapi masih berani mengambil hak daerah yang diwakilinya. padahal belum becus kerjanya.

jagoan adalah orang yang tau berbuat apa, berani berbuat dan berani bertanggung jawab atas perbuatannya. dan semua yang gue sebutin di atas sebenarnya bukan jagoan di mata gue. tapi lebih ke ironi jakarta.
masih banyak jagoan sesungguhnya di luar sana. sebenrnya sih gue gtau mau ngomong apa.

cuma gue suka amazed aja sm mereka. salut sama keberanian mereka. tapi entah apakah mereka bisa mempertanggung jawabkan itu semua.

emang, bodoh sama nekad uh neda tipis.

feeling is confusing

but the thing is, he's so like someone on my past. i just think, maybe universe sent him to my life, just so i can have him back. oh, fck.

i still have a hidden dream

the only reason why we're dreaming is, to make us pursuing them.
we dont dreaming for no reason.

then again, lately ive been thinking to be into film industry. :/
bcs lately ive been surrounded by such a young and talented movie maker, and i like their world. and the people, so humble.
then again, i thought to myself. where i wanna be a fashion photograher. and i think, do i really want them? (after i followed and tasted the atmosphere) 

i think.. no. but i still wanna be a photographer. experimental one. and i still wanna publish a book.
well, in the end i just wanna be an artist.

and.. i decide. to apply for scholarship. either art or film study. bcs deep inside, im so craving for studying art and,or film. but, just not now.
bcs dream is to be pursued. not only be dreaming of.