aku lelah.....

gue salah satu pengguna jalanan jakarta yang memiliki mobilitas tinggi. tiap hari harus bolak balik selatan-utara-selatan. kendaraan yang saya pilih adalah motor. karena emng cepat dan lebih praktis (alesan aja, padahal karena belom punya sim a). you guys might be annoyed when i said i'm motorcycle user.
pengguna motor kerap kali dicaci dan dimaki pengguna jalan lain. katanya ga tau aturan lah, seenaknya, dan ga takut mati.

hey!!

itu benar. WKWK. gue juga ngerasa kadang gue emang nyebelin di jalan (apalagi klo udah telat)
tapi sebisa mungkin gue hormatin pengguna jalan lain. kalo ada yg mau nyebrang ya gue kasih, kalo macet ya gue ikut macet tanpa ngambil jalan trotoar, ya kalo lg ga bisa nyelip ya gue ga maksa nyelip diantara mobil2. i feel like saint while on the street lah pokoknya.

soalnya gue masih takut mati. hahaha dan gue tau gimana rasanya di posisi lain.
jangankan elo yang make mobil. gue aja kadang suka kesel sama sesama pengguna motor.

tapi mau gimana lagi. anyway, untuk jarak yg segitu jauh, kenapa gue lebih milih capek2 di motor daripada kendaraan umum?
well, this is what i wanna say.
gue sadar betul bahwa gue turut berkontribusi dalam kemacetan jakarta raya dan well, gue kesel juga.
tapi bayanginlah kenapa gue rela mcet2an drpd naik kendaraan umum? karena sarana transportasi umum di jakarta itu masih jauh dari kata "enak dan nyaman".

oke, katakanlah skg udah ada busway gandeng untuk koridor 1 (that's my route anyway) pas naik, widih keren.. gede.. adem.. muat banyak..

tapi, armadanya terbatas dan suka lelet karena jalanannya belum memadai fasilitas ini.

men, my time is fckin ticking! i dont wanna waste my time just sitting nicely on the bus! waiting it to be arrived, belum lagi kalo ada armada yang macet. halah! BUS MACAM APA INI! METRO MINI YG REOT AJA JARANG MOGOK AND WAY FASTER THAN YOU!

i mean, dear goverment, stop bikin ruas jalan baru, fly over, ato ruas tol baru, itu cuma nambahin titik kemacetan. karena selama transportasi umum lo belum becus, kita akan tetap lebih milih macet2an pake kendaraan pribadi daripada naik bus lo.

mau maksa kita dengan peraturan ganjil genap baru lo? percaya deh. masyarakat akan menemukan dan menghalalkan berbagai cara hanya untuk dapat tetap memakai kendaraan pribadi di jalanan. it wont work for long time. 

focus aja lah dulu dengan 1 solusi yang penting kelar dan menjawab permasalahan kita.

how to explain this..

if you think your love is worth fighting for (bcs it feels so right but it's so hard at the same time) then go fight for it. fight for your curiosity.
but give it a limit. think logically. give your brain a chance to decide to, wether its right-normal, or wrong-crazy-insane stuff to fight.
bcs when we in love, we usually got blinded by... love itself.

at first it could feel so right, you are so fckin sure he/she's the one that understand you so much. he/she's the one that love you too. BUT REALLY? we got 6 billion people and counting in this world.
how could you be so sure?

i might be lame for trusting faith. i might be lame for depending my life on so called destiny.
but i do.

so, when you fight for someone. go fight for it. but think logically too. if it seems so impossible?
then surrender. not giving up, but surrender.
have a little faith. let god do the rest for you. make the impossible, possible. :)

so, entirely universe has made a single rule. bros before hoes.

brosh before hoes. even it's applied for girls.
bro before hoes.
girls can stupidly spend so many (even much) things for his boy, but they will carefully spend something for their friends.
sacrifice so much effort for his boy but will not logically think, is it gonna work out? and deny all the advice she got blinded by so called true love.

really, girls? i'm pretty disappointed here.

eggs and religion nowadays.

so my family have this habit, where you gotta wash eggs before you put it in refrigerator.
i was asking why we gotta do it because im wondering. we eat whats inside the eggs right? and you guys know that egg shelter is pretty strong protecting the yolk and the white inside from all the beacteria outside, she said because we bought the eggs from unsanitary place, there are so many possible germs that brought within the egss shelter, so at least we wash away the egss so whole refrigerator didnt contaminated.

i was like, well makes sense.

then i dont know  iguess our family (well me) too lazy to wash the eggs one by one, so recently we just put it away inside the refrigerator.

then tonight my brother cook and egg. he took it from the refrigerator then wash it.
i was asking "you eat whats in the egg or the shelter? whats the point u wash it?"
he just remain silent.

i think that whats happen with so called religious people.
they didnt know exactly whats the point, whats the goal, whats the meaning by following the rulesm tradition, and whats so ever "god" taught to them.
they just simply follow them
that what makes them stupid. and pointless.
just saying.

first post on 2013.

2013!!!!!!

we survived 2012 finally. :')
banyak ngeliat harapan2 kecil sampai besar di timeline twitter utk 2013.
mostly minta cuma 1. (sesimpel) bahagia.

bahagia itu ga simpel. dengan meminta bahagia berarti lo meminta jalan hidup lo (dari segala aspek) dimudahkan. whats so simple with that? apanya yang hanya bahagia? sepanjang tahun bhagia? wih.. surga sekali.
meminta untuk bahagia sama aja dengan kata lain utntuk serakah.

padahal bahagia itu ga perlu minta. ga perlu cari. cuma perlu disadari.
sesimpel dengan bersyukur.


happy blessed 2013! :)

the good idea of breaking up

i always wonder, that when will this day come. and when this day finally knocking on me, i wasnt even ready.
i was trying to be prepared but actually im just lying to myself.

i lied that i will be ready, i wont be hurt or even holding you back.
i lied, that i dont care we're just hving fun. you dont matter to me.
i lied that i can through this.

there's no good in breaking up actually. i lied. 
but my good idea of breaking up is, ketika kita sedang keluar bersama. on regular date just for some chit chat.
then we both realize there's nothing we can do anymore.
then we both decide, "lets break up" simply like asking "hey you wanna have some tea?"
then, ok. lets break up. with a smile and no hurt feelings.
then they eat their ordered meal. finish them.
then they go out from that cafe happily, in separated ways.
then they continue their each life. 

but then i realize thats the most naive bullshit i ever made.
if you can simply asking your lover to break up and they say yes with no hard feelings.
then all you have so far, is just a big lie.

i like torturing myself by thinking about you. about us.

hati gue ga pernah bersama perempuan yang menghancurkan hubungan sebuah pasangan. wanita kedua, simpenan, selingkuhan, hts-an ato apalah namanya. sebaik dan semanis apapun perempuan kedua itu, tetaplah dia yang merusak hubungan yang udah dijalin. karena dilihat dari manapun, tetaplah dia yang salah.

dan hati gue ga pernah bersama lelaki yang memilih bersama perempuian kedua itu. atau bahkan sempat tercipta perempuan kedua itu.
kenapa sebuah hubungan itu harus dirusak dengan pihak ketiga? kalau udah bosen, yaudah udahin aja. kalau udah ga cocok, ya akhiri aja. kenapa mesti saling menyakiti?


if it didnt last, that its not love.

i want my orgasm* last forever.

aku ingin berdua denganmu diantara daun gugur.
aku ingin berdua denganmu, tapi aku hanya melihat keresahanmu.

huff.. (harus banget ya setelah jeda yang cukup lama, blog ini gue mulai dengan sebuah desahan panjang)


kenapa ya manusia tuh ga pernah puas.. apa si yang dicari?
sampai titik apa sampai manusia merasa sempurna dan puas.
lalu seberapa lama kepuasan itu akan bertahan.
well, we cant get orgasm forever.

now i understand what the meaning of phrase "nobody dies virgin bcs life fcks us all"
in the end, kita bukannya menghidupi hidup, tapi hidup yang memerkosa kita secara brutal.
if you cant resist it, you simply have to enjoy it.

dan emang, seberapapun banyak materi yang lo punya. you cant buy perfection. no, you can buy your temporary happiness from your luxury life but you cant get perfection.

karena balik lagi, lo akan terus berbalik ke ketidakpuasan. ketidakpuasan berakar pada ketidaksempurnaan.
so, nothing's perfect. your money cant buy perfection.

bcs perfection leads to boredom.
and boredom leads to dissatisfaction.
and vice versa.  

mari belajar menikmati ketidaksempurnaan kita untuk menyempurnakan hidup kita yang tidak sempurna ini.

*orgasm : happines.

way to go, Ga!

i love tired eyes.
behind tired eyes, there are a lot of untold stories, not shared worries, unfinished work and lost soul.

i love tired eyes. you know, it's not easy to make those. but you also know, without them, you will just forget why are you so tired. what have you done, and why you gotta keep doing it.
you will easily forget, where are you going to.

tired eyes will show you why you have to get up and fix it. because it's so ugly to your pretty face. and you miss the sparkling of your eyes.

tired eyes is a reward, of your sweat and a reminder to your happiness.
so dont close your eyes yet. remember why are you here and how far you have done.