just a small note

is it okay if i miss you, like now?
because i often feel guilty if i got myself missing you.
i feel like i am not supposed to feel that way anymore.
i should move the fuck on like you said
i try like so hard until i close all the doors
and let no one to knock it or even open it
sometimes i want to slap myself when i caught myself thinking of you
the memories just suddenly across my mind and then i feel so many sensation, like terribly sad even bliss become one.
just by thinking of you.
i know i know i am wrong!
please please, understand me that i am not that easy.
even you already did the rudest way to me
even you are totally over me
but its just not that simple.