Wednesday 30 March 2011

kenapa gue terdengar seperti bapak TB?

uang itu setan, ya ga sih? hahaha
sounds so apathetic ya? tapi emang sih. tadinya uang, cuma sebagai alat tukar. tapi lama kelamaan bikin kita jadi haus dan tamak.

menurut gue, uang, sebut saja rejeki, itu udah di bagi rata sama semesta. well, even ga rata, yang jelas udah tersurat deh. ada porsinya masing2.

mislanya : you got 10.000, nah dimata gue, 10.000 itu adalah "titipan" semesta untuk orang lain. lo ga mungkin dong mienyimpan 10.000 itu sampai mati in order ga mau boros. lo butuh makan. katakanlah lo jajanin roti seharga 5000. nah, 5000 itu adalah rejeki tuh tukang roti dari semesta melalui lo. untuk menghidupi anak si tukang roti. untuk penyambung hidup keluarga si tukang roti. ya kan? nah, nantinya, 5000 itu akan berpindah lg, seteah dijajankan oleh ank tukang roti untuk beli es mambo seharga 1000, nah itu jadi rejeki si tukang es itu, dan seterusnya. saling menghidupi :)

jadi, janganlah lo pelit2 sama orang. karena sebenarnya srejeki kita itu adalah titipan semata. lo kira kenapa uang ga berguna di surga dan pas lo mati kenapa? ya karena itu cuma titipan.

dan janganlah kita terlalu haus akan uang, karena memang kenyataanya skg money matters everywhere, tapi itu semu. lo punya uang 1 milyar, lo beli mobil mahal trus lo dpt apa? bangga lo pamer mobil itu? mobil itu bs bkn lo bahagia as in truthfully bahagia?? i guess, no....
the only thing you got is, people envy you. and there's nothing good in envy.cuma ibkin orang jadi ambitious dan dibutakan oleh materi.

uang itu sifatnya temporary. datang dan pergi. ga usah lo takut kehilangan uang, karena nanti pasti ada yang gantiin. 

Tuesday 29 March 2011

sanctuary.

setelah sekian lama vakum, berorganisasi, at least bekerja dalam satuan banyak orang, di dalam orang-orang dengan berbagai jenis sudut pandang dan pendapat, akhirnya kemaren saya kembali nyemplung lagi.

rasanya seneng. maybe this is my sanctuary..

kemaren ngedekor buat labirin expo di kampus. meski ga maksimal krn i tend to do with my way and i have no charge in there. hahaha such an ego.
but yeah, it feels great. bercapek2 ria. sama feelsnya kyk pas ngurus yearbook. the deadline, the pressure, sementara mesti muter otak biar sesuai konsep, dengan segala keterbatasan yang ada. dan lagi beberapa oknum yg emang mau ga mau pasti ada buat cuma meramaikan suasana dan numpang nama.

mungkin gue mst kerja di majalah kali ya. :)

today's weird conversation

batisa

margaaaa

maap td lg d jalann
kenapah?

kok minta maaf?

emg nya gua ngapain? 

kan ga diangkat telpon lo haha

aku mengecewakanmuhh

emg gua nelpon lo?

emg enggak??? -.-

kpn?

AH AKU BEGITU MERINDUKANMU
SAMPAI BERHALUSINASI

enggak

BNRN GA NELPON?????
boong ah?

beneran marga
haha

IH JAYUS BGT GUE WKWKWKWKW
ASLI DAH

kamu memfantasikan aku yaaaaaa?

HAHAHAAH ketauan dechhhh

woghz!

IH BS GTU YA GUE

Saturday 26 March 2011

thoughts #194

gue berusaha mencintai Jakarta dan Indonesia dengan segala kekurangannya. karena disinilah gue diberi hidup. disinilah gue mencari hidup.

Friday 25 March 2011

gue ga pinter bikin resensi buku. gue selalu nyontek kalo pelajaran bahasa indonesia. tapi gue cuma mau bilang, buku ini bagus banget.

5cm by Donny Dhirgantoro. - rated 5 stars.

bikin gue tambah cinta sama indonesia, bikin tambah pengen naik gunung, dan makin percaya sama mimpi.
karena tanpa mimpi, kita cuma seonggok daging bernama yang berjalan.

percaya ato ga, tapi gue ngerasa si Donny kayak pernah baca isi otak gue. hampir semua filosofi yang dia sebutkan disana pernah bertengger di otak gue. gue kayak, anjir. setuju bgt!
and it makes me feel, gila gue ga sendiri yang mikir kaya gitu. hahaha

buku ini bakal bikin lo, wah bener juga. atau.. iya ya..? hmmm dan akhirnya termenung sendiri karena yang lo baca itu "deg" nembus ke akar-akar hati.

worth to read buat lo yang sedang ragu akan masa depan lo.

long time no story

hai haii. setelah kelar berkutat sm tugas yang udh gue tekadin untuk kelar malem ini juga, baru boleh ngeblog, hahah finally here i am :)

kayaknya akhir-akhir ini gue jarang cerita ya?

okeoke.

so, kemarin, gue ke kineforum lagi, nonton Janji Joni. setelah tadinya bergulat sama hati gue sendiri, mau kuliah apa mau ke kampus orang? hahah abis jadwalnya gtu bgt. jam set2. males kan. (woo nyalahin keadaan)
anyway, gue mutusin untuk nonton gratis aja di kineforum, TIM. jadwalnya pada saat itu adalah film Janji Joni, 2005,by Joko Anwar.

dan ga sedikitpun gue sesali bolos kali itu. yah, shame on me, sampe kemaren gue belom pernah nonton Janji Joni. bukannya ga tertarik cuma ga ada kesempatan.

FILMNYA BAGUS BANGET. film yabg menyuguhkan setting kurang lebi 1 jam itu, bener2 mengandung banyak makna tersirat. soundtractnya bagus. pemainnya bagus. settingnya bagus. apalgi ya? ga mau sok tau bgt sih, intinya bgs hehehe

yang mau gue sorot disini adlaah, bagaimana si Joni ini menarik banget di mata gue (despite yg main @nic_sap ya u.u)
menarik kenapa?
menarik karena dia kerja dari hati untuk hati. bukan uang. dan teguh bgt. gimana dia tetap bersikap baik dan ga apatis setelah apa yang nimpa dia.

inget scene (bagi yang udah nonton) dia kecewa sama Adam Subandi karena ternyata seniman gila kayak dia, pikirannya cetek banget? cetek karena mengorientasikan perkerjaan berdasarkan materi saja. kayak mostly orang-orang sekitar kita kan? :)

Joni kecewa, dia bilang kerja untuk hati, melakukan hal yang dia senangi. dia senang jadi pengantar roll film. PADAHAL, buktinya dia berbakat jadi drummer dan atau aktor!

tapi dia tetep komitmen sama track recordnya, bertanggung jawab sama kerjaanya, dengan dimotivasi janjinya pada Angelique.
gatau ya, akhir2 ini sekeliling gue makin sering denger ...
berjuang, perjuangin, mimpi, masa depan. kejar mimpi. tanpa mimpi kita cuma seonggok daging yang punya nama. lahir dan mati tanpa dikeanng dan benar-benar hidup.
ahhh...

saya ingin sekali mempercayai kalimat tersebut. thats it from me. gue ucma mau nekenin seperti apa yang selama ini gue tekenin di blog ini.

believe in your dreams. living your dream. achieve your dream.

Wednesday 23 March 2011

muter di otak. kayak kaset rusak.

sabar. perjuangin. perjuangin.
berjuang?
mimpi?
materi.
berjuang,
berjuang?
mimpi.... 

Tuesday 22 March 2011

#DREAM

i wanna live in south of france. or maybe surrey. or whenever that looks like a small quiet peaceful village. somewher ein europe.

where me and my family has a farm. and big backyards. we alsoo have beautiful garden besides my house.
mm, we have a good realitonship with neighbourhood.

we go to small and homey church every sunday. meet other and have fun.

we attend wedding which held in farm. with such a lovely decoration.

i go to everywhere with my old lovely bicycle.
i work in old cafe. where  meet everyone in town and they know me too.

(to be continue)

i wanna beleive that dreams could make me happy.


i was actually about to sleep but i was feeling writing, but i was feeling sleepy at the same time. but!! i cant sleep. so here i am.

Hari ini seperti biasa, gue randomly main ke pim krn emang lg ga ada kelas. So there i was, feeding my hunger belly in food court, alone. Watching people. Sampe mata gue tertuju sama seorang cewe berambut ngebob yg lg asik makan smbl ngobrol sama tmnnya. Beberapa meter di sebrang gue.

Wait, wait, bukan gue ngeliatin dia krn dia aneh or something. But i recognize her. How come you didnt recognize somebody you adore her works so much? Yes she is one of my muses.
It’s funny. I kept thinking on myself. I wanna be like her. But she’s just like me. likeother human being. She doesnt look fancy or something. She’s super ordinary. People wont notice her as behind-the-gun of great adv they saw on magz. They wont. They might notice her as usual-mbak-mbak-kantoran-yang-lagi-break. No, they wont recognize that campaign they saw on magz that made them go crazy and want it so bad is made by her. 

And yes, i wanna be like her. I can be like her. What so special about her? People wont realize that girl is a boyfriend of , perhaps, member of so-in-right-now band.
Lucu.. lucu.. orang ga pernah bisa ditebak ya? 

Then i wondering to myself. How  do i go there? It’s all blurry here. Ga mungkin kan gue, demi punya akses ke dunia kyk si muse gue itu, trus gue bela2in pindah meja, sok saik gabung sama dia dan ngenalin diri, “hai gue marga. Mba dita ya? Gue suka bgt sm karya mbak lohh. Ajak kau foto dong kali kalii pelissss“ cih..  itu sama saja suicide. Killing my own future and my name. 

Dan tiba-tiba gue kepikiran buat berhenti kuliah dan ngeles seni aja. gue beneran pgn serius di bidang art. Tapi di satu sisi gue ga mau ngecewain and taking too big risk and throwing all my parents sacrifices for me all these time, just like that.
My parents struggling hard for me so i can go to college, and this is me? abandon their.. hopes? I cant.

So, how did i get there? God, show me the way. I wanna be into that industry so bad. I feel like i need to find my sanctuary. I cant wait to feed my family with my own effort.

Monday 21 March 2011

thoughts #193

i dont know, i mean, i draw. i shoot, i WRITE. WHY CANT I MAKE MY OWN BOOK someday?? hahaha

Saturday 19 March 2011

thoughts #192

gila ya! kita ga pernah tau seberapa besar kecepatan doa. well, kita juga ga tau seberapa ampuh dan senyata apa kekuatan sebuah doa. yang gue tau cuma satu kata kuncinya : ikhlas.

Friday 18 March 2011

Pak beye, where are you?

buset deh, bom dimana2. dalam bentuk kiriman pula. dan untuk alasan yang ga masuk akal. well, bombing has never a good reason.
temen gue blg ke temen gue (apa deh) sebut aja si a dan b.
si a bilang gue bakat jadi reporter. sewaktu gue presentasi kemarin,

dan pas plg brg si b, si b blg ke gue. i feel... flattered :')
it's always nice to hear people said something nice about you secretly.

KONGRATULASIIII

untuk yang setia sampai sekarang, menemani gue disaat gue suram, galau, seneng, bosen, mau bobo, diperjalanan, libur ga ada kerjaan.

yang setia ga cuma nemenin gue, tapi setia mengudara 40 tahun lamanya di Indonesia!
dari jaman nyokap gue masih ngempeng sampe gue yang udah kuliaahhh!


HAPPY TOP 40TH , PRAMBORS RASISONIA! you're part of my life. and always be! 

sedikit berbagi, pertama denger radio, ya prambors itu! jatuh cinta sama siarannya Sesa Nasution sama Warman. di acara Safari Sore. ternyata si Warman ini pengganti si Imam Darto yg emg kebetulan ga masuk.
dan believe me, from the very first i heard them, i decide i wanna be announcer. sampe skg. itu pas gue kls 1 SMP.

ga tau ya, chemistry mereka dapet bgt. well ga cuma safari sore doang, tapi jg acr lain, sehingga tiap gue dgrin prambors, gue berasa ditememnin scr live. diajak bercanda scr live, berasa temen bgt!

fyi, saking sukanya gue sama safari sore, gue bela-belain tap sore mantengin radio di dalem kamar gue. tiap sor ekerjaan gue ya ngendok dalem kamar aja tuh, makan bawa ke kamar, nunda mandi sampe acara kelar, sampe2 emak gue bingung, gue kenapa.

asumsi2 emak gue aneh2 pula! dikiranya gue udh punya pacar, telpon2an sm cowo (soalnya dari luar samar2 ada suara orang - ya prambors itu bahahahah) trus dkira gue depresi ada masalah, sampe ga mau keluar kamar, terus ya dikira gue nge-drugs/ ngerokok lah! i was like, WTH MOM.

hahahahah

dan pas safari sore dialihkan ke mucho macho juga gt. agak kecewa harus berpisah sama Mbak Sesa yang gue kagumi (CIEH) tpai ternyata kombinasi Okky-Darto gilak juga. hahaha

terus, karena gue makin sibuk, jadi jrg dgr lg, tapi, sampe pas gue mau dgr rutin lg, eh mucho macho udah ga ada. agak kecewa. feels like somehting missing.

tapi, sekarang, gue rutin, tiap pagi dan sore, pasti dgrin selama diperjalanan. there's something in radio that i love. i dont know. it feels more... alive. gue ga suka dgrin playlist. krn 1, gue bosenan. kedua, kesannya mati. just playlist. dan ketiga, ketebak lagunya. itu-ituuu doang hahahah. i am random person!

anyway, happy top 40th sekali lg buat Praambors. you have no idea how much you affect me. how you have taken a part in the making of myself. :)

me at this time

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed -- Katy Perry.

Thursday 17 March 2011

#facts since i was 6, Java Culture attracts me a lot!!!!!

anyway cm pgn berbagi sdikit dari mbah sudjiwo tedjo ;

dalam lakon hanuman, hanuman diusir tuhan krn membela tuhan. dia blg tuhan maha kuasa , tapi dia masih ngebela tuhan.
jelas dia diusir, krn dia dianggap sok kuasa. tuhan bilang, kalo orang menghalangimu membelaku,baru kamu berperang. kalau mereka menyerangku, aku maha kuasa.
km bilang aku maha kuasa kan? kenapa hrs dbela?

Jakarta's too serious. Jakarta need more fun.

macet adalah makanan sehari hari saya. well, at least 3 hari dalam seminggu, 2 kali sehari. saya harus bergelut dalam kerumunan kendaraan yang saling bersaing. well, bukan gue doang. i know.

most of Jakrta's citizen have to deal with trafvck jam every time. even when you wake up at 5 in the morning. still, it's undeniable.

apalagi untuk gue yang harus stuck di jalanan paling lama 3 jam cuma buat ngampus. maklum, gue tebrilang nekad dengan mendaftar ke kampus yang letaknya dari ujung ke rumah gue yang katanya antah berantah.

demi ilmu u.u

anyway, yang mau gue bahas disini, gue selalu selalu dan selalu mikir gimana caranya ngatasin macet. if i were major of this freaking town.
  1. masyarakat ga diperbolehkan bekerja diluar batas jangkauan rumahnya. i mean, tempat kerjanya hanya boleh berjarak paling jauh yah.. 5 km. yayayaya! gue tau ini ga adil. banget. apalagi yg tmptnya ndeso tapi mau maju (kayak gue) orang yang mau kerja jauh, harus punya surat rekomendasi yang menyatakan bahwa mereka tuh skillfull betul sampe dibutuhkan bgt di kantor tsb. HAHA! toh denngan bgini, kalo orang tempat kerjanya deket2, ga bakal dong ya menuh2in jalan, naik mobil sendiri, pergi pagi2 jauh2.
  2. kurangin / hilangkan tempat parkir kendaraan roda 4 & 2 . dengan kata lain memaksa pegawai2 kantor untuk make kendaraan umum.
  3. banyakin busway. gedein jalurnya. 
  4. wajibkan bersepeda.
  5. takut telat naik sepeda? ohh jangan takut. ada kewajiban dr pemda (which is dr gue ehem) batas dimulainya jam kerja, jam 10! sampai jam 3 sajaa! life's wonderful rightt :)) jadi selow2 aja. hhihihih
we deserve more fun! since jakarta s metropolitan city! how come we missed all the sparkling and wasted it just for boring routines???
yea, money is the root of all problems we have.
    sekian presentasi dari saya. pilih saya jadi walikota jakarta 2030!!!

    Tuesday 15 March 2011

    my elements.

    i wanna be fashion photographer slash photojournalist with social background. #eh? i mean seriously. the more i  learn, the more i heard about our social and politics issues, the more i cant choose which to focus.

    plus idealism that grows bolder and bolder inside me. i wanna be experimental photographer too. perhaps.
    i dont wanna put all the rules i know into my works. it's only my eyes and heart that work. its as simple as that.
    i wanna capture light.
    i wanna capture emotion.
    i wanna capture motion.

    that's it. but.... it's still blurry. how to go there.

    definisi nasib.

    nasib cuma sebatas menetukan sesuatu yg ga bisa lo perjuangkan/ubah.
    contoh ; lo terlahir dimana dan oleh siapa, lo mati kapan, jodoh lo siapa nantinya, hujan atau ngga,

    hanya sebatas itu. selebihnya bisa lo ubah karena hidup ga tergantung sama nasib doang, tapi perjuangan kita.
    contoh : rejeki lo berapa, lo mau sepinter apa, pacar lo siapa, negera lo kayak gimana.

    kalau sampe anak muda percaya nasib menentukan segalanya, dikhawatirkan bangsa mereka ga akan maju. gausah bangsa, hidup mereka ga akan maju.

    masa depan kita, di tangan kita.

    Sunday 13 March 2011

    i feel pity on myself

    HAHAHAHAHAHAH I WAS TOTALLY FAILED THIS TIME.

    well, try again, fail again, fail better. next time.

    Saturday 12 March 2011

    thoughts #191

    i always annoyed when somebody asks me and i dont have the answers.
    just that simple.

    Mari berkenalan dengan Bapak satu ini, Pramoedya Ananta Toer.

    "Kehidupan ini seimbang, Tuan. Barangsiapa hanya memandang pada keceriannya saja, dia orang gila. Barangsiapa memandang pada penderitaannya saja, dia sakit.

    (Anak Semua Bangsa, h. 199)"
    Pramoedya Ananta Toer
    "Hidup sungguh sangat sederhana. Yang hebat-hebat hanya tafsirannya

    (Rumah Kaca, h. 46)"
    Pramoedya Ananta Toer
     
    Sebelumnya, di bawah pengaruh Jawanisme, kebanyakan orang Indonesia bahkan tidak merasa bahwa mereka dijajah.

    (Saya Terbakar Amarah Sendirian! h. 15)"
    Pramoedya Ananta Toer

    Saya ini kagum kepada Bung Karno. Ia sanggup melahirkan nation, bukan bangsa, tanpa meneteskan darah. Mungkin dia satu-satunya, atau paling tidak satu di antara yang sangat sedikit. Kelahiran nation itu biasanya, dimana saja, mandi darah. (Suara Independen no.3/I: Augustus 1995)

     

    thoughts #190

    mungkin ada baiknya semua orang ga punya mulut. biar dunia ga berisik!!

    Friday 11 March 2011

    Cusp Signs


    Cusps are the borders between the twelve astrological signs. You are considered to be "on the cusp" if you were born within a day or two of the beginning or end of any sign.

    and i am one of cusps signs since i was born on 21st of February.
    Aquarius-Pisces Cusp - February 18 to February 22

    01. Aquarius/Pisces are selfless and spiritual, often strongly intuitive and receptive to the collective unconscious.

    02. Those born on the Aquarius/Pisces cusp reflect the dual nature of life, reality and non reality, consciousness and the unconscious. They represent consciousness through the flowing of ideas. They work hard to bring their ideas to fruition, stubbornly refusing to give up their causes.

    03. They are peace loving and friendly, and are the chameleons of the Zodiac, receptive to the needs of others but sometimes getting lost themselves.
    04. Aquarius/Pisces tend to be strongly spiritual (not necessarily religious) and artistic. They are idealistic, but sometimes their dreams are vague and impractical.

    05. When reality intrudes, they can become pessimistic or lethargic, but they are very adaptive and broad-minded, so they can rework their ideals when necessary.

    06. Aquarius/Pisces are tolerant and open-minded, but tend to stick to their beliefs. They are compassionate, sensitive, imaginative and sympathetic to the feelings of others. They tend to be romantic and sentimental, but they may give in to escapism.

    07. They are devoted to their goals, but they can be disorganized or procrastinate when faced with difficulties.

    08. Their intellect makes them logical and self-confident, but it may also makes them aloof from people around them. (esp here -.-)

    09. They are original, offbeat and even eccentric, but they are also rather bored by detail. Reformist and experimental, Aquarius/Pisces may seem cold toward people who don’t share their intellectual orientation to life.

    10. Those born on the Aquarius/Pisces cusp may become timid if their emotions are abused too often.

    11. Aquarius/Pisces are often multitalented, both in scientific and creative endeavors.

    12. They are unique and rebellious people who are driven to change the world. However, they can be shy, quiet and sometimes elusive, refusing to show their true selves.
    13. They are modest and thoughtful, sometimes displaying remarkable musical talent. Their freedom is important to them, and they are often driven to help others become free, as well.

    14. They may work to alleviate their emotional stress through contact with others and exercise.

    15. The great strength of the Aquarius/Pisces is in their visionary nature and their compassion. They are the people who take the world to the next level; they make others see things in a new light. Their ability to break the rules and help others reach their fullest potential makes them one of the most understanding characters of the zodiac.

    Wednesday 9 March 2011

    the lord is testing me.

    so, today's ash wednesday. gue bukan tipikal religious person tapi gue suka tema paskah bulan ini: berbagi.

    kelar gereja hari ini, gue beli nasgor. di dalem komplek gue. sembari nunggu, gue liat2 sekeliling gue. liat bintang, liat orang pacaran, liat orang2 lewat.

    tapi ada sesuatu yg nangkep mata gue, di seberang gue, ada ibu2 paruh baya bebraju lusuh nan kumal, gendong anak bayinya, dengan seorang anak cowo yg paling 2 tahunan, mainan plastik kresek. dijadiin layangan. it's seems enough fun for him. miris. miriiiiiiisss bgt.
    as i said, maybe im too sensitive for stuff like this.

    nyet, bayangin, kalo itu lo beberapa thn mendatang (amit-amit) lo duduk, baju compang-camping, and you're even incapable to feed your own children. and couldnt give them place to settle, called home. lo gimana rasanya? apakah lo bakal mengumpati dan maki2 setiap orang yg lewat krn mengacuhkan lo?

    :(

    people seem not care. i do care, but i failed to help them. at least i tried. am trying to forgive myself here.

    jadi ya kawan2, gue cuma mau ngasi tau.. kalo lo masih punya rumah buat tinggal, bisa makan 3 kali sehari, punya ortu yg kerja bhkn bs sampe sibuk, bisa mengenyam pendidikan, masih bisa ngerasain ayam setiap hr lo GA PANTES BGT NGELUH. :)


    gue sendiri, berusaha bgt untuk ga ngeluh. tiap hari gue berhadapan sm pengamen2 dan pengemis di ibu kota. gimana gue bs ngeluh kalo gue sendiri msh jauh lbh baik dr mrk? *sotoy* *ditoyor*

    Tuesday 8 March 2011

    3 top country to visit if i was billionaire.

    1. BRAZIL
    2. AUSTRIA
    3. GREECE

    reblogging it from sinssanctuary.tumblr.com :)



    this video makes me love my country more indeed. but, i think its just less showing (me) Java. all i got if i saw this is, east Indonesia. but it's still cool!

    things i dont understand

    5 promotor, 1 konser akbar, 10.000 tiket, dan bocah yang br genap 17 thn Maret ini.

    menurut lo gimana? lo paham ga kenapa, bocah yg baru akhil baliq itu bisa se-booming gitu? bisa sampe di gila-gilai beribu2, bejuta2 orang? menurut, lo, worth it ga konser paling akbar mesti buat dia?

    kenapa ngga.......... siapa ya? ada ide?

    thanks to whoever made this.

    tadinya saya anti sama teh beginian. teh ya teh gausa macem2, pake ditarik2 pula.
    tapi setelah dicekoki dengan tek tarik dingin sama sodara saya, saya jatuh cinta. enyak bangettt :3 im addicted!!

    thoughts #189

    god, can we have no-strings-attached relationship? well it seems, i have one already with you.

    (update) keyakinan, modal utama.

    ingetin, mau ngomongin soal dosen dan keyakinannya.

    oke, setelah ngumpuin nyawa dan niat, im gonna tell you about my lecturer and his believe.

    so, finally i got a proper lecturer. he teach in politic class. he's doing his dissertation to become a doctor and soon going to be proffesor. well, young proff. he's only.. 27ish.

    he's funny. i laughed a lot in his class. he's easy going.

    he told us, that the only key become succes is, having faith on yourself.
    he said, he comes from not-so-wealth family. one day, he said to his friends, he's going to become University of Indonesia student. and his friend didnt believen in him. as we know, going into UI is hard as fuck. esp only from SNMPTN way.

    then, he didnt got it.

    but, he still believed he's going to be. well, he finished his bachelor in unpad then finally made it to UI. he finished his master in UI, in 2 major subject, and got second rank among his faculty. damn man.

    and now, he told us, he's going to be a ministry in Indonesia goverment. his friends still laughed at him. so some kids on my class. me? i believe in him too.

    btw, his friends who laughed at him was still stuck with his bachelor, while my lecturer already graduate and got his master degree.

    he said, at first he didnt believe in himself too. he only became activist and did demonstration around. barely coming to class, he only had faith.

    faith.

    he said, if you think that god is cruel, then god could more cruel than we thought. so, beware with our mind.
    we become what we think. our faith could deliver us to everywhere.

    Monday 7 March 2011

    .__.

    so this is real and im gonna make it quick bcs im too tired to write.

    i was going home as usually, taking 610 bus from blok m terminal. you think, every 610 buses is the same? no until you hear my story.

    i was about taking, the first 610 bus i saw, but, something distracts me. i decided to buy some candies bcs i was sleepy like i couldnt even open my eyes any longer.
    than, i missed that first bus i saw.

    then, i took the next 610 bus. after bought some candies.
    you know what?
    after that, in the next meters, i saw that 610 bus i was going to take, is crushed. the whole windows is broken. the glasses is spreaded on the road. and it caused a little traffic. so many people.

    i was like, geez. that i was escaping from death? :O
    i could just die if i took that bus.

    but still, universe doesnt want me yet.

    Friday 4 March 2011

    introducing you,


    NEW POST. 

    tak ada yang abadi.

    life's like a movie. it gives you teaser.
    the teaser says ; nothing's eternal. and it's quite short. it can be ended anytime.

    now, it all depends to us, would we give up? when we know, everything's not immortal.
    all things you achieved, is doent matter in the end. all the things you've done, does matter suddenly.

    to be honest, when i think about the point that nothing's eternal. i feel like dying, and want to die. hahahah i mean, what's the use that we're trying so hard now when in the end... none of them is lasting. thats me being apathetic.but i need to step away from it. detachment, like Morrie said.

    and then i think again, life's like doing acrobat. you have to focus, so you can stay great. bcs, problems, troubles, and, death, is around us. are only step ahaead when we did a simple mistake.

    let say we're walking on the thin wire crossing high higghhhh cliff. a single mistake will deliver us, to death. a simple small wind will take us to death. the wind is like the death. who are trying to fall us down.
    shoo shoooo...

    or let say, we are crossing a high way. which be passed by million cars speedly.
    then, when we cross it, we gotta be so much careful, or in the next second, and next step, we could be die. hit by car. BOOM!

    hahahah i know, what's wrong with me tonihgt? being so.. gothic?
    i dont know, the thing i know is, i am afraid now. the idea of dying is eaten me up now. and i hate it.
    and i hope everything's gonna be ok.
    ha-ha-ha universe, you're so funny.why you did this to me?

    so lets just say, i was going to go take a train, i was like, i really want to go there, and i almost got the ticket.
    then, the tickets was gone. okay.
    but then, i saw he, the one i wanna meet so bad, entering that train i was going to take.

    okay, well.. thanks universe.

    SEJARAH ADALAH SEKARANG

    Pemutaran Film : Sejarah adalah Sekarang 5

    Selasa, 1Maret 2011
    14.15: Perempuan Kedua
    17.00: Darah dan Doa
    19.30: Nakalnya Anak-anak

    Rabu, 2 Maret 2011
    14.15: Raja Jin Penjaga Pintu Kereta Api
    17.00: Badut-badut Kota
    19.30: Sorga yang Hilang

    Kamis, 3 Maret 2011
    14.15: Red Cobex
    17.00: Enam Djam di Djogdja
    19.30: Beranak Dalam Kubur

    Jum'at, 4 Maret 2011
    14.15: Ira Maya Putri Cinderella
    17.00: Metamorfoblus
    19.30: Kejarlah Daku, Kau Kutangkap

    Sabtu, 5 Maret 2011
    14.15: Langitku, Rumahku
    17.00: The Songstress and the Seagull
    19.30: Tuan Tanah Kedawung


    Minggu, 6 Maret 2011
    14.15: Djenderal Kantjil
    17.00: Petualangan Sherina
    19.30: Fiksi


    Senin, 7 Maret 2011
    14.15: Si Badung
    17.00: Biola Tak Berdawai
    19.30: Taksi

    Selasa, 8 Maret 2011
    14.15: Rama Superman Indonesia
    17.00: Red Cobex
    19.30: Pedjuang


    Rabu, 9 Maret 2011
    14.15: Janji Joni
    17.00: Sorga yang Hilan
    19.30: Betina

    Kamis, 10 Maret2011
    14.15: The Songstress and the Seagull
    17.00: Tamu Agung
    19.30: Intan Berduri

    Jum'at, 11 Maret 2011
    14.15: Madame X
    17.00: Raja Jin Penjaga Pintu Kereta Api
    19.30: Inem Nyonya Besar

    Sabtu, 12 Maret 2011
    14.15: Anak Seribu Pulau
    17.00: Ira Maya Putri Cinderella
    19.30: Tiga Dara

    Minggu, 13 Maret 2011
    14.15: Garuda di Dadaku
    17.00: Madame X
    19.30: Asrama Dara


    Senin, 14 Maret 2011
    14.15: Tuan Tanah Kedawung
    17.00: Perempuan Kedua
    19.30: Intan Berduri


    Selasa, 15 Maret 2011
    14.15: Rumah Dara
    17.00: Janji Joni
    19.30: Metamorfoblus


    Rabu, 16 Maret 2011
    14.15: Rama Superman Indonesia
    17.00: Fiksi
    19.30: Tiga Dara


    Kamis, 17 Maret 2011
    14.15: Gundala Putra Petir
    17.00: Inem Nyonya Besar
    19.30: Pedjuang

    Jum'at, 18 Maret 2011
    14.15: Perempuan Kedua
    17.00: The Songstress and the Seagull
    19.30: Tamu Agung


    Sabtu, 19 Maret 2011
    14.15: Neraca Kasih
    17.00: Langitku, Rumahku
    19.30: Ibunda

    Minggu, 20 Maret 2011
    14.15: Djenderal Kantjil
    17.00: Anak Seribu Pulau
    19.30: Seringai: Generasi Menolak Tua


    Senin, 21 Maret 2011
    14.15: Asrama Dara
    17.00: Marsinah
    19.30: Biola Tak Berdawai

    Selasa, 22 Maret 2011
    14.15: Seringai: Generasi Menolak Tua
    17.00: Intan Berduri
    19.30: Gundala Putra Petir

    Rabu, 23 Maret 2011
    14.15: Si Badung
    17.00: Beranak Dalam Kubur
    19.30: Rumah Dara

    Kamis, 24 Maret 2011
    14.15: Enam Djam di Djogdja
    17.00: Marsinah
    19.30: Hiphopdiningrat

    Jum’at, 25 Maret 2011
    14.15: Darna Ajaib
    17.00: Lewat Djam Malam
    19.30: Mereka Bilang, Saya Monyet!

    Sabtu., 26 Maret 2011
    14.15: Garuda di Dadaku
    17.00: Ira Maya Putri Cinderella
    19.30: Marsinah

    Minggu, 27 Maret 2011
    14.15: Nakalnya Anak-anak
    17.00: Langitku, Rumahku
    19.30: Fiksi

    Senin, 28 Maret 2011
    14.15: Si Badung
    17.00: Betina
    19.30: Seringai: Generasi Menolak Tua

    Selasa,29 Maret 2011
    14.15: Mereka Bilang, Saya Monyet!
    17.00: Tuan Tanah Kedawung
    19.30: Kejarlah Daku, Kau Kutangkap

    Rabu, 30 Maret 2011
    14.15: Hiphopdiningrat
    17.00: Beranak Dalam Kubur
    19.30: Badut-badut Kota

    Kamis, 31 Maret 2011
    14.15: Darna Ajaib
    17.00: Red Cobex
    19.30: Inem Nyonya Besar


    ayoo, coba kita liat film2 berkualitas Indonesiaa. jangan taunya indonesia suka jadiin pocong, film doang :)

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    Thursday 3 March 2011

    i've found 3 types of human.

    1. adalah mereka yang hidup untuk mati
    2. dan merek yang berani mati untuk hidup
    life's short and so wonderful, why waste it on something boring? why dont you escape from the boundaries?
    orang dengan tipe pertama, adalah mereka yang rela terikat sama rutinitas dan kegiatan yang sama dengan sejuta manusia lainnya.
    orang yang ke2 adalah mereka yang ga bisa tinggal diam menjadi budak rutinitas and common things. life's too short for that.

    dan tipe ketiga adalah, mereka yang tersesat dan ga bisa menemukan jalan keluar.

    we are craving for something peaceful.

    ade gue : eh, papa minta dimasukin gambar2 tuh ke hapenya.
    gue : he? gbr apa?
    bokap : yaa gambar apa ajaa!
    gue : ya gambar apaa?
    bokap : ya yang bagus2 gitu. apa kek. *keukeh*
    gue : ya apa? power ranger tuh bgs. mau?
    bokap : ya jgn itu juga! ya oemandangan2 gituu.
    gue : ._______. pemandangan...?

    lalu, gue dan bokap keliling google dengan kata kunci "pemandangan" hahahaha
    moralnya, gue cuma mau bilang. oke, lebih tepatnya bertanya, kalian ngerasa ga sih kenapa orang tua rata2, suka bgttt sama gambar2 pemandangan yang meneangkan jiwa gitu. kayaknya damaaaii gitu.

    well, i found many reasons, mungkin, mrk kurag merasa damai semasa muda mrk, atau, mereka mendambakan kehidupan yang damai 'setelah' ini, atau, mereka mau ke tempat2 yang damai itu sebelum mereka......... uzur. hehehe

    well, tenang ma pa, saya, margaretha, anak yang kalian suka omelin, berjanji, suatu saat nanti akan menerbangkan kalian ke tempat yang kalian kira khayalan semata dan tidak nyata. wait for my promise.

    Wednesday 2 March 2011

    one day...

    A : kayaknya kita kepinteran deh Ga..
    M : emang.. .__. hahahah gue meng-iya-kan pernyataan itu lg, tapi emang, Bi!

    Tuesday 1 March 2011

    my lecturer said..

    malas ga selalu buruk. malas membuat manusia jd kreatif dan berinovasi. kalo ga, kenapa orang nyiptain motor kalo bukan karena males dan capek gowes sepeda? klo ga kenapa orang nyiptain remote kalo ga mau susah2 gonta ganti channel TV ? klo ga kenapa orang nyiptain iPhone kalo ga mau repot2 bawa kamera, kompi, hp, dll sekaligus? HAYOO???!!!!

    WELL, I GOTTA AGREE WITH YOU SIR! LONG LIVE LAZY-ASS!

    diamond in the mud

    saya ngerasa kampus saya kayak tong sampah.

    eits, in a good way. at first glance, it's nothing but rubbish and dirty things. basically it's all useless and uninteresting. but when you dig deeper, you'll find something unexpected and kinda... precious or perhaps too-awesome-to-be-thrown-away among those rubbish.(like ehem me!)

    these days, i found like a few guys. i mean hot guys. i mean like, hot like hell. well, their hotness brings coolness at the same time! eh? :P

    well, i dont know who the hell they are and how come they could be in the same campus with me and why the hell i just discover them or where the hell they have been when i looking aroundd? hahaha

    oh whatever, i am still in the middle of desert. am craving oasis!