okay this post will problaby be the last post for this year.

waw, time's running out so fast eh?
yeah.

so err, as usually people make some resolutions for the next year (and i cant deal with it, i keep breaking those resolutions i made)
and, this year (lets pretend its already 2010 bcs i have something to do tomorrow [31st] which means i cant blogging tomorrow) i try to make more simple resolutions that i (hope) i can make it real.

so here it goes. in 2010, i will...

1. i took a challenge from her which i have to blogging with pictures/drawings EVERYDAY. it'll officially start at first January 2010 until the whole year. everyday. okay.. so in 2010 im gonna be a scribble. woohoo!
   
2. i am so picky. including when i buy a shirt. i have so many ideas for my ideal t-shirt but i just cant found it out there. so, this year, im planning to make some t-shirt, designed by me. wish me luck.
3. since i am so picky, i try to make a dress too.
4. this year, im planning to have a DSLR (kay i told you so many times but just wish me for this year!) bcs im going to college and i know i will really need this stuff.
5. graduate with quite good score from high school. its a must.
   

its quite simple and short list eh? i dont wanna be too much, like i have to do this, i have to reach this, i have to change my attitude and bla3.
so so whats yours?

and i want to thank to God for this year bcs, this year. i got so many things and i learn so many things from this year.
i got a scholarship which is so helpful (and it fulfilled my previous resolutions)
being 17, got my official identity. i have met so many great friends this year. my dream apparently came true (even it vanished again but thankfully it happened)
so many things i cant mention one by one.

and, how about you? whats yours?
so people, see you in next year.
i hope 2010 gonna be my fckin year and .. i just can say,

happy end year then have a joyous NEW YEAR , all ♥

i am Jasmine, waiting for my Alladine to show me the whole new world

Cinderella

One of your parents is dead.
You are expected to do a lot of chores.
You love to dress up.
You love animals.
You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming.
Your mom is really strict.
You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you.
You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes.
You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before.
You have blonde hair.
Total: 4

Belle

You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like.
You’ve been lost in the forest.
You love to read.
You are not shy at all, and not afraid to speak your mind.
One of your family members is a bit weird.
You have done volunteer work.
You have a wild imagination.
You love to take care of people in need.
You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty.
You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out.
Total: 5

Jasmine

Your dad is very rich/important.
You are very clever.
You’ve been with someone way different from you.
You’re unique and different from everyone else. (note : we are)
You’d never marry someone just because they were rich.
You have set a lot of goals for yourself.
You don’t have a lot of friends.
You’re independent.
You are wealthy.
Your parents try to control your life.
Total: 7

Ariel

Your parents expect a lot from you.
You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you.
You’re a bit of a trouble maker.
You’re the youngest in your family or in the last two.
You have a lot of sisters (three or more).
You collect something.
You have/had long hair.
You have/had a pet fish.
You’re extremely curious.
You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible.
Total: 6

Snow White

You know that you’re beautiful.
Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you.
You’ve almost been killed.
You have at least seven good friends.
You’ve had food poisoning.
You have/had short hair.
You get along with almost everyone.
All of your friends are different.
You love to have a good time.
You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in.
Total: 5

Mulan

You can be a tomboy sometimes.
People wished you could be a bit more girly.
You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not.
You have/had considered running away from home.
Your parents try to plan your life out.
A lot of your friends are boys.
You sometimes find yourself in bad situations.
You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them.
Total: 5

Aurora

You live/have lived with someone other than your parents.
You almost died at a very young age.
You are gentle, loving and/or thoughtful.
You have a decent singing voice.
You like to sleep in late on the weekends.
You spend most of your time outside, or try to do so.
You’re adopted.
You’re very romantic.
Pink is one of your favorite colors.
Total: 4

Pocahontas

You love to walk around and explore big cities.
You are more spiritual than religious.
You’ve been in an interracial relationship.
One of your family members is dead.
Your parents are very protective of you.
Someone you know has been in war.
You love nature.
You have/had black hair.
You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful.
You’re very adventurous.
Total: 5

bold everything that applies on me. i do this a lot when i am bored

I am a cuddler
I am a morning person
I am a perfectionist
I am a night person
I am an only child
I am Catholic (and never have a plan to change it)
I am currently in my pajamas
I am currently suffering from a broken heart
I am okay at styling other people’s hair
I am left handed
I am addicted to my myspace
I am very shy around the opposite gender
I bite my nails
I can be paranoid at times
I currently regret something that I have said
When I get mad I curse frequently
I like someone
I enjoy jazz music
I enjoy smoothies
I enjoy talking on the phone
I have a pet
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal (who doesnt???)
I have a tendency to fall for the wrong person (never, i believe in my intuition)
I have all my grandparents
I have at least one sibling
I have been told that I am smart (which i am not really smart)
I have broken a bone
I have Caller I.D. on my phone
I have bathed/​showered with someone I have changed a diaper
I have changed a lot over the past year
I have done something illegal
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair
I have had surgery
I have killed another person
I have had my hair cut within the last week
I have had the cops called on me
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t
I have held hands with someone who wasn’t my boyfriend/girlfriend
I have loved someone
I have danced around naked

45 LESSONS LIFE TOUGHT ME

1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.
8. It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.
12. It’s OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.
35. Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s,we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

"i think about you every time. and then somewhere in my heart says 'get a life!', and i say, 'no.' " - nn

"its weird how you go from stranger, to being friends, 2 being more than friends, then suddenly back to practically strangers again " - nn

"i text you when i miss you, when i dont text you, it means im waiting you to miss me" - nn

"if i cant get it, i can make it." - m.

"life hurts more than death ' - Jim Morrison

lets talk about me.

me.
i am a simple girl with a complicated mind
i am too nice sometimes and sometimes it becomes problem for me.
i always think i can be whoever i want but the problem is, i dont want it.
i feel ordinary and invisible.
i understand people in my own way, i just can figure them out.
i listen to people more than i talk to them
i am a quite girl actually but sometimes i can be so attractive and talkative. its just my alter ego.
i love UK so much from the first time i saw it (not to mention it technically and literally)
i like party and having fun indeed
i hate studying but i like learning
i seriously hate ant(s), i hate them so much, three much, screw them!!
i always think i could be something someday, i dont know why.
i dont know why i write this but its just came out like this.

so, how about you?

the mystery was revealed.

when i was a kiddo. i like to watch Teletubbies. not very much but i just do. then i always wonder what creature are they? what are they from?
i thought, it maybe a doll. or robot, or animation (but its just too real to be animation) or stop motion of moving plasticine? or whaaat?

but then, this pictures explains a lot.

very not educational though.
i thought they were boys!!!

the pensieve in my life

sometimes, i really wish i had a pensieve, you guys know what pensieve is?
harry potter freak (like me) must know it.

A Pensieve is a stone receptacle used to store and review memories. Covered in mystic runes, it contains memories that take physical form as a type of matter that is described as neither gas nor liquid. A witch or wizard can extract their own or another person’s memories, store them in the Pensieve, and review them later. It also relieves the mind when it becomes cluttered with information. Anyone can examine the memories in the Pensieve, which also allows viewers to fully immerse themselves in the memories stored within, much like a magical form of real world virtual reality.

so,why i wished so? because, i am really bad at keeping memories. especially long-period memories. i dont know if its kinda a bad habit or even diseases or whatever, but i do.
that's why i am never good at re-tell story systematically, if someone asks me to re-tell someone's story that i have heard i would really feel, confused, where to start, how to tell, what to tell.

no, no, i am not dyslexia but ,i just cant tell it systematically. im good at making conclusion of something but im never good at detail.
i think globally. i always missed the details. like, when i study, i just take a big conclusion of those subject, i understand it all. but when you ask me particularly of that subject, i will fail.
i always fail, that's why i never got a 100 scored in my exams. i've always missed a thing! a simple thing!

and, back to the topic, i wish i had a pensieve bcs im afraid that i will forget all my memories slowly. i hate when the survey/quizes i took, asked me about "when bla3" "when bla3" bcs i find it hard to answer! i forgot! the memories are somewhere inside my head but i cant found it.

im afraid that someday, i would forgot him. the all the things we said. all the things ive done. all the things people said to me. all the things i learned. so it would be very good if i had pensieve so i can keep you in my memories all the time!

speaking of you, im afraid too that i will forget you. yes, you. because you know, i realize a lot, that people changes. proven, when i saw my elementary school friend, or someone i haven't met since long time ago then suddenly they popped out in front of my eyes, and they were so different until i wasn't recognize them at all and something like that. yeah, i forgot.

so, if you find me in the next couple years maybe 5 or 10 or whatever, and you have changed a lot, and i dont know you, or even recognize you or notice you, please please say hi to me. bcs basically, im not a friendly person. i wont say hi to you first to you if im a bit hesitating you.
i wont say hi first if i feel like you wont expect my greeting.

and speaking of changing, i always wondering how do i look like in the next 5 years.
will i change better? or maybe i'll stay
maybe, i wont wear any glasses anymore
maybe i will have a very long hair or even very short one.
maybe i'll dye my hair into blue, black, purple or even red! (no i wont)
maybe, i'll wear full make up
maybe i'll stay simple
maybe i'll dressed up
maybe just maybe.

future is interesting yet scary huh?

the dreamerrr

INFPs are introspective, private, creative and highly idealistic individuals that have a constant desire to be on a meaningful path. They are driven by their values and seek peace. Empathetic and compassionate, they want to help others and humanity as a whole. INFPs are imaginitive, artistic and often have a talent for language and writing. They can also be described as easygoing, selfless, guarded, adaptable, patient and loyal.

Famous INFPs

Real INFP People

A. A. Milne - author (Winnie the Pooh)
Albert Schweitzer - theologian, musician, physician
Aldous Huxley - English author
Amy Tan - author (The Joy-Luck Club)
Annie Dillard - author (Pilgrim at Tinker Creek)
Audrey Hepburn - actress (Breakfast at Tiffany's)
Dick Clark - television personality
Donna Reed - actress
Fred Rogers - Mister Rogers' Neighborhood
Fred Savage - actor (The Wonder Years)
George Orwell - author, journalist
Helen Keller - deaf/blind author, activist, lecturer
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow - American poet
Isabel Briggs Myers - psychological theorist
J. R. R. Tolkien - writer (Lord of the Rings)
James Herriot - veterinary surgeon, writerJames Taylor - singer-songwriter, guitarist
John - Disciple of Jesus
John F. Kennedy, Jr. - lawyer, journalist, publisher
Laura Ingalls Wilder - author (Little House on the Prairie)
Lisa Kudrow - actress ("Phoebe" on Friends)
Luke - physician, author
Mary - Mother of Jesus
Mia Farrow - actress
Neil Diamond - musician
Peter Jackson - filmmaker (Lord of the Rings)
Princess Diana - Princess of Wales Scott
Bakula - actor (Start Trek Enterprise)
Tom Brokaw - television journalist
Virgil - ancient Roman poet
William Shakespeare - English poet and playwright

conclusion : most of them are author, journalist, filmmaker/actor/actrees. great. exactly what i want to be.

Fictional INFPs (Characters)

Anne - Anne of Green Gables
Bastian Balthazar
Bux - The Neverending Story
Calvin - Calvin and Hobbes
Deanna Troi - Star Trek: The Next Generation
Doctor Julian Bashir - Star Trek: Deep Space 9
Doug Funnie - Doug cartoon

E.T. - E.T. the Extra-Terrestrial Fox Mulder - X-Files Rocko - Rocko's Modern Life Tommy Pickles - Rugrats Wesley Crusher - Star Trek: The Next Generation

conclusion : most of them are really loony and dreamer. great.

Career Match :

Activist

Actor

Architect

Artist

Church Worker

Counselor

Editor

Educational Consultant

Employee Development Specialist

Fashion Designer

Filmmaker

Graphic/Web Designer

Holistic Health Practitioner

Human Resources

Journalist

Legal Mediator

Librarian

Massage Therapist

Minister

Missionary

Musician

Photographer

Physical Therapist

Psychologist/Counselor

Researcher

Social Scientist

Social Worker

Speech Pathologist

Teacher/Professor

Translator/Interpreter

Video Editor

Writer

comment : oh yess! i love my job!

beberapa fakta yang mungkin beberapa dari kalian sudah tau, gw cuma bakal men-spotlight beberapa fakta saja.

1. Coca-cola dulu berwarna hijau. (dan dulu namanya CinCau :P )
2. Nama yang paling umum digunakan di dunia adalah Mohammed.
3. Dalam bahasa inggris, semua nama benua diawali dan diakhiri dengan huruf vokal yang sama.
4. Otot terkuat yang ada di badan kita adalah lidah.
5. Setiap orang di USA punya 2 kartu kredit!
6. TYPEWRITER adalah kata terpanjang yang dapat diketik dalam satu baris tuts keyboard anda.
7. Perempuan ngedip dua kali lebih banyak dari pada laki-laki. (baca ginian bikin gw pengen ngedip mulu)
8. Menahan nafas tidak akan membuatmu mati.
9. Setiap manusia tidak dapat menjilat siku tangannya sendiri.
10. Kalau ada orang mengucapkan doa setiap kali ada yang bersin karena memang setiap kali kau bersin, jantungmu berhenti satu milisecond. (yampun, gw bisa berhenti hidup selama beberapa milisecond. karena gw selalu bersin 3x atau lebih)
11. Secara fisik, setiap babi tidak bisa melihat ke langit.
12. Ucapkan “sixth sick sheik’s sixth sheep’s sick” beberapa kali, nanti anda akan mahir berbahasa inggris!
13. Bersin terlalu keras dapat mematahkan tulang iga, memutuskan pembuluh darah di kepala atau leher dan mengakibatkan kematian.
14. Setiap raja dalam kartu remi melambangkan raja-raja besar jaman dahulu kala:

Raja sekop - Raja Daud
Raja keriting - Alexander Agung
Raja hati - Raja Charlemagne
Raja wajik - Julius Caesar

15. 111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987, 654,321
16. Kalau ada patung orang naik kuda dan dua kaki depan kuda itu naik di udara, itu tandanya orang itu mati dalam perang.
17. Kalau kaki kudanya cuma satu yang diangkat berarti orang itu cuma terluka dalam perang.
18. Kalau semua kaki kudanya menjejak tanah, berarti orang itu meninggal karena sakit.
19. Apa persamaan rompi anti peluru, printer laser, tangga darurat dan wiper mobil? Jawabannya: semua ditemukan oleh perempuan! Hah!
20. Satu-satunya makanan yang tidak bisa busuk? Jawaban: madu.
21. Buaya nggak bisa melet lidah. (mangap aja dah serem apalagi melet)
22. Siput bisa tidur selama 3 tahun.
23. Semua beruang kutub KIDAL! (thats why i love them)
24. American Airlines menghemat $40,000 tahun 1987 dengan cara mengurangi 1 buah olive dari setiap piring salad yang mereka sajikan untuk penumpang kelas 1.
25. Indera perasa kupu-kupu ada di kaki.
26. Gajah adalah satu-satunya hewan yang tidak bisa lompat.
27. Selama 4000 tahun belakangan ini, jenis hewan yang dipelihara di rumah cuma itu-itu saja.
28. Rata-rata manusia lebih takut pada laba-laba daripada kematian.
29. Shakespeare menemukan kata: “Assassination” dan “bump”
30. Dengan menggunakan cara mengetik 10 jari, STEWARDESSES adalah kata terpanjang yang bisa diketik hanya dengan jari-jari tangan kiri.
31. Semut selalu jatuh ke kanan setiap kali disemprot cairan anti hama
32. Kursi listrik ditemukan oleh seorang dokter gigi
33. Jantung manusia dapat menyemprotkan darah sejauh 30 kaki.
34. Dalam 18 bulan, 2 ekor tikus bisa punya lebih dari sejuta anak tikus!
35. Memakai headphone selama satu jam dapat menstimulasi perkembangan bakteri dalam telinga sebanyak 700 kali lipat!
36. Pemantik ditemukan sebelum korek api.
37. Setiap lipstik mengandung sisik ikan.
38. Seperti sidik jari, lidah manusia pun mempunyai kontur yang berbeda-beda.
39. 99% orang yang membaca tulisan ini mencoba mengalikan fakta no. 15
40. Dan akhirnya, 99% orang yang baca tulisan ini pasti mencoba menjilat siku (gw termasuk 1% nya)

fenomena zaman sekarang.

i think twitter already taking a big part of our life. proved when i saw so many unimportant tweets that shouldnt be tweeted. like..

"aduh, keselek, ga enak banget." - abis keselek langsung nge-tweet. ga mau minum dulu?
"hape gw mana yaa??" - demi twitter, sampe minjem hape orang buat nge-tweet. sebaiknya dahulukan handphone anda.
"kasian banget ada orang ketabrak tadii" - tolongin woy!!
" brb muntah " - get well soon, dumbass.
"heran deh, di pesawat masih ada aja ada yang nyalain handphone!" - itu handphone lo dodol!

yah, semacam itu. bahkan tak sedikit yang menjadikan twitter arena curcol. its okay for me. its yours. kalo gw ga suka kan tinggal gw unfollow.

intermezzo.

while watching Happy Feet
mom : itu pinguin beneran apa orang pake baju?
brother : (patiently) itu animasi 3D gitu.
me : (maaa, pleaseeee deeeehhhhhhh! does it look like people with penguin costumes???? how could they train so many penguins to sing and dance? or even talking?!)

question :
emak gw yang terlalu innocent ato animasinya yang terlalu real dan canggih?

my stupidity in xmas, whats yours?

huah its Christmas day (drum roll) "DASSH!" (singing : dashing through the snow, get the fuck off my way)
okay enough.

so, what did i do last night?
last night was Christmas eve. so i went to church with my friends.and when i was going to Asbi's house to go to church together, you know what? without realizing that, i let my jeans zipper widely open, GODDAMNIT! i cant imagine i walked with my zipper widely opened!
not surprising if i felt like all people were staring at me! they were.. looking at my ~ ARGHH!
i felt so ashamed!

so, in the next day, as usually my friends sent me greeting Christmas messages. like merry Christmas and bla3.
because i just slept at 3 am, then i was woken up by those messages at 10 am and too lazy to type or arrange some new messages, and i felt like i have to reply those messages, i decided to forward my older Christmas messages that i got from my another friend.

it sounds like this:

carols were sung, cherubs were danced, and Christmas was born.
have a merry & joyous Christmas this year -David & family

(i choose this bcs i think its pretty good mssg)

so , i start to forward that message to everyone.
and stupidly me, i forgot to remove the credit!
i forgot to remove David & family.

OMG!!' i was like, WTF ive done!!
and now, i think my friends will laugh on me bcs my stupidity. or they were wondering who the hell David is. or.. arghh!
i feel ashamed. twice on this Christmas. great.

so, have yourself a merry little christmas!
xoxo,
m.

finally, christmas time.

so, tonight is Christmas eve yawn!
i love it. even in here we're not snowing.not even close, or even cold weather but i do love christmas. always.

and let me share you, my Christmas tradition, or ritual that i always do in Christmas eve.
watching this.

oh i love that jazz christmas song that Mr Bean conducts!

if santa's real. well.. i think he wont give me anything bcs i know i am a bad girl after all.
anywaayy, i wont tell you my wish list this time maybe its gonna be long list with canon, mac and Charlie McDonell on it but my top wish, which is my only wish that i really want is, i want to celebrate my Christmas in England with my whole family.

and then, in the end, the orange koala just wanna say..

to y'all. happy holiday, happy Hanukkah, happy christmas, happy happy! X)

thank god its internet

yah, sesuai ma headline nya. jaman sekarang, maaf, maksudnya anak jaman sekarang siapa sih yang ga kenal internet. mau sedikit gw bahas aja kali ini di blog gw, mengenai "internet"

something that we have to thanked God about.
internet itu, sangat sangat addictive. dengan internet semua kayak tinggal menjentikkan jari. ya ga?
mau ngomong sama sodara/ pacar yang tinggal di ujung kulon sekalipun di ujung berang juga bisa. tinggal skype, msn, or whatever.
ade gw aja yang baru duduk di kelas 6 Sd udah punya facebook, tumblr, youtube, oh my. jaman gw SD gw masih duudk manis depan tivi nonton Rugrats.

internet juga bagus sih, kita jadi ga dangkal. banyak banget hal yang bisa kita tau dari internet. gw bener2 bersyukur sama orang yang nemuin internet.
gw bisa ngerasa pinter kalo ditanya adek gw ato gw bisa ngerasa terkenal gara2 punya temen segudang di facebook. orang juga gampang terkenal di internet. ga prcaya? try me.

tapi efek yang gw rasakan dari internet juga banyak.

1. gw jadi sering dimarahin nyokap gara2 jam online gw yang dari mulai melek sampe mau merem. ga kira2. mungkin ini juga penyebab kecacatan komputer gw.
   
2. kebanyakan account. dan ujung2nya saat gw mau online, semua account gw log in. semuaaa dan itu membuat saya sedikit agak kelabakan. dari facebook, twitter, blogger, and bla3. i have about 10 accounts in different sites.
   
3. ini positifnya. gw jadi gampang dapet inspirasi. tau news terkini.
   
4. kalo bete? online, update status, tweeting, seneng deh.
   
5. mau nyari film/lagu? download aja. semudah menjentikkan jari kan? ga perlu beranjak dari rumah
6. online shop become my biggest guilty pleasure

see? this is what i called traveling without moving. what a great invention.
tapi ini adalah dampak favorite gw :

dimana gw merasa dihargai. karya2 gw dihargai banyak orang. ga cuma yang gw kenal aja.
gw bisa menunjukkan karya gw, dan somehow internet friend are more friendly than we have in real life.

to be honest, gw ga berani nunjukkin (sebenarnya males) karya2 gw ke orang tua ato temen gw. kesannya pamer dan mungkin mereka juga ga gitu ngerti. dengan adanya internet dan situs jejaring seni dimana tempat lo bisa sesuka hati mengunduh (asik bgt bahasa gw) karya lo tanpa dikira pamer, disitu gw beraksi.
dan gw seneng bgt pas mereka (orang2 yang ga gw kenal) merespon positif karya gw. walaupun jumlahnya belum banyak tapi some of them kinda like mine.
dan itu membuat gw sangat sangat dihargai. jauh lebih dihargai di dunia nyata.

dan, 1 lagi. internet membuat kita merasa "we're not alone" i mean. lo semua pasti sering ketemu quote ato cerita ato apalah yang lo banget kan? it means you're not alone. di seberena gsana banyak yang ngerasa kayak lo. dan itu kadang membuat gw merasa better.

ironic? yeah. thats life. i live in internet. you may call me a nerd now

QA

Q. Do you believe in love first sight?
A. no. love is deeper than that. but i do believe in crush at first sight.

Q. do you think love exists?
A. oh yeah. even i had so many unfortunate love life (ehem) but i do. why my parent can stay together and i can stay alive until now if its not because of love! just open your eyes, love is not only about lovey dopey things between couples.

Q. who's your favorite couples?
A. oh its hard. but i really love Alexa Chung-Alex Turner. perfect!

"aku ingin engkau ada disini, menemani ku saat sepi menemaniku saat gundahh
meskii, telah lama kita tak bertemu
ku selalu merindukan kamu
ku tak bisa hidup tanpamuu
aku rindu setengah mati kepadamu
sungguh kuingin kau tahu, aku rindu
setengah mati.. aku rindu."

itulah sepenggal, lirik dari band yang lagi digilai oleh remaja2 alay di Indonesia saat ini. sepenggal lagu yang ga sengaja gw denger pas gw lagi bengong (baca : BAB) di kamar mandi dari salah satu acara live di stasiun tivi tadi pagi.
yang kemudian menyentil gw secara telak.

PS : lama-lama gw jadi massivers aja deh.

okay, the holiday is ON!

at least even i am not going anywhere, at least i dont have to wake up early which i dont like.
so so, how's holiday?

i am planning some good things. not great. and actually i am not not in the mood for going anywhere far.
so im planning my holiday to do marathon dvds 9chirstmast edition of course)
so, any suggestion?

and then. i think i will add some more drawings on my wall.

this is my wall. now. yeah lack of colours, the basic is green. pale green. i think i am gonna miss them so much. there's so many characters on my wall. based on my life.

bold everything that applies on me. i do this a lot when i am bored

1. I’m in my bedroom now.
2. I’m in Asia.
3. My hair is black.
4. My best friend is of the opposite sex (one of my bestfriends)
5. My best friend is my significant other.
6. I’m currently listening to music.
7. In fact, I listen to music more than 80% of the time.
8. My parents are still married.
9. I have an older sister.
10. I prefer wearing skirts over pants/jeans.
11. I love high heels.
12. I have plans for tomorrow.
13. My watch is white.
14. My cell phone is neither a slide nor a flip.
15. I’m near-sighted.
16. I use smileys a lot.
17. My music player is Samsung.
18. My significant other’s birthday is in September.
19. My razor is pink.
20. I love the rain.
21. I’m chatting with someone on instant messenger now.
22. I use MSN.
23. I have a Facebook account.
24. I’ve more or less abandoned my MySpace account. (or deleted)
25. My last name has only three letters in it.
26. My middle name sounds prettier than my first name.
27. I’m terrified of cockroaches.
28. I’m using Windows Vista now.
30. I’m not on a desktop computer.
31. I just watched a video on Youtube.
32. I have over 200 favourites on Youtube.
33. And I’ve watched at least 1000 videos.
34. I’ve never smoked a cigarette in my life.
35. And I don’t intend to try one either.
36. I’ve been on a plane all by myself.
37. I’d rather sing well than dance well.
38. I’m satisfied with my height, but not with my weight.
39. My hair is naturally wavy.
40. My nails are painted.
41. I know how to drive but don’t have a license.
42. It’s almost midnight now.
43. I own an animal print wallet.
44. Zebra print is my favourite.
45. I take pictures with my cell phone a lot.
46. I love black eyeliner!
47. Saturday is my favourite day of the week.
48. And tomorrow is Saturday!
49. I loved Captain Jack Sparrow and Captain Barbossa in POTC.
50. I play the piano pretty well.

do you want to know?

this is my very first camera. i got it when i was 6 or maybe 7. i got it from my dad when he came back from Japan. and since i am not a good keeper, unfortunately, this colonel sanders has to be broken and lost :| kinda regret it.
okay you can curse on me for losing him.

i wanna have ...

• a big cozy white tent in my bed room with full of stars and clouds hanging inside it.
• a Christmas long lamp, you know, like the lamp we use to cover the Christmas tree to make it glowing
  
• something glowing in the dark. like lamp maybe. i dont know but i always like something that glowing in the dark.
  
• a flag of UK
• my artworks on the wall
• photos of my family, my friends and i.
• a board to put all my dreams and my next target on it
• some action figures. no need a big one. maybe something like Mr. Bean and other legend
• i always want to have a real music box that play a classic music.

in my bedroom. someday.

the difference between men and boys

A boy looks good with his shirt off
A man looks good because of the way he looks at you

A boy will smile during the good times
A man will laugh during the bad

A boy goes to work because he has to
A man works because he can

A boy buys a plasma screen television
A man accumulates a library

A boy will hug you in the kitchen
A man will hold your hand anywhere you’re together

A boy knows how to load the washing machine
A man knows what doesn’t go in the dryer

A boy can read the grocery list you have written
A man will shop it with you, put it away, and cook anything on it

A boy will talk to you about lousy day
A man will ask you about yours, and listen

A boy will read a to do list
A man knows what has to be done

A boy will buy you flowers
A man will plant them with you

A boy will tell you what you want to hear
A man will tell you what he has to say

A boy will share a thought
A man will share his dreams

A boy will tell you he feels good when he is with you
A man will tell you how he feels when he can’t be at your side

A boy will share intimate moments with you
A man….will share his life

someday,

there will be someone who takes your place in my heart.
someone will love me like how much i love you.
someone that return my days.
i wont even miss you.
i will forget you.

but im afraid, that day wont come.

my own myth.

Kalian tau ga, (yg jwb ngga dluan gw tabok lo) putih2 kecil yg suka muncul di dalam, bagian tengah atau ujung kuku?trus tiba2 ilang sendiri. apa si namanya? ya pokoknya itu deh. (gini deh kabel data ilang. Ga bs post fotonya. Di kuku gw lg ada 4 nih!)

mau gw bahas dikit.
Apapun itu namanya, gw pikir dulu,itu adalah sabun yang nyelip ke kuku!
tp ternyata bukan. Ternyata itu menandakan kita kurang zat apaaa gitu lupa.

Nah, lucunya pas gw SD, beredar mitos bahwa apabila putih2 itu di tangan kanan berarti ada yg sk sma lo. Kl di kiri b'arti sebaliknya.

Misalnya, ada 2 di tangan kanan gw dan 2 di tangan kiri. Berarti 2 orang yang sebel ma gw dah 2 org yg suka ma gw.
Silly.

Dan sekarang walaupun gw tau itu adalah bohong besar, tetap aja gw me-modifikasi mitos itu.

Jadi, kalo di jari kelingking artinya org yg ga gt lo perhatikan lg sebel/suka sma lo.
Kalo jari manis, orang yg lo suka.
Kalo jari tengah, orang yg lo sebel.
Kalo jari telunjuk, org yang deket/biasa lo temui.
Kalo jempol, orang yg TOP MARKOTOP lagi sebel/suka sma lo.

Oke kan. Hahaha yayaya tentunya itu semua fiksi belaka. Just a random thoughts AGAIN.

i am a scribbler who loves to scribble.

hem hem.
akhir2 ini gw lg ga mood nulis. pengennya nge repost apa yang udah ada dan sekiranya sejalan ma pikiran gw.
terus kenapa gw tiba2 nulis sekarang?
gapapa. (random thoughts mode on. watch out this is not gonna be important note to read)

oke. akhirnya kawan2, gw selesai test.
a week full of exams. ga bikin gw capek sih, toh jg gw ga belajar maksimal.
tapi "HOORAY" because it already ended. i hate exams.

mmm..
bagaimana ya caranya untuk me-record segala hal yang ada di otak kecil saya.
eh teman2, tau ga si otak kita punya bagian yang namanya otak kecil (selain otak kiri dan otak kanan) dan itu adalah bagian yang paling penting dari our whole brain. kecil tapi penting. lucu ya.
just random fact.
gw bener2 familiar sama yang namanya otak kecil. dari kecil.
anyway, balik lg ke pertanyaan awal saya.
karena akhir2 ini saya ngerasa kinerja otak saya melemah (pd sadar ga drtd gw gonta ganti subject haha ga konsisten)
beneran deh. mau gambar, lg ga kreatif. mau belajar lagi ga mampu ngapal. mau nulis, lg ga bisa ngerangkai kata2. pdahal tuh ya, di otak gw lagi penuh penuh sepenuh2nya hal2 yang pgn gw tulis, gambar,ingat dan lupakan.
rasanya pengen gw pindahin ke hard disk external (kalo ada) trus gw bawa kemana2 trus kalo gw butuh, gw cari lagi. ceklik ceklik.
so my old memories wont irreplaceable by my new one.
dan gw ga perlu mengingat hal yang ga penting drpd hal yang seharusnya gw ingat :|
effect kebanyakan mi kali ya. jd tumpul gni nih otak huh.

mm, gw sering berandai, kalo misalnya gw kena amnesia or whatever lah yg semacam itu. tapi gw cm lupa sama selected memories aja. it would be fun i guess. but what if the selected memories is my precious memories. the things that i always remember. the things that i always keep on my mind. maybe its you.

dan saya sedang mencari orang yang berbeda. belum ada, kawan. semua hampir sama. typical normal. dan sedikit freak. tapi freaknya in a really freaking way. bukan interesting way.
aneh ya? ga ngerti? yaudah ga pa pa.
lets move on. gw mulai ngaco.

terusss, kemarin minggu adalah minggu yang oke buat gw.
kenapa? bayangin ya, seorang Marga, bangun pagi buat gereja. waw. terus abis itu langsung disusul berenang sama ade. waw lagi. terus abis itu sampe jam 5. ga waw. terus bangun dan belanja dvd dan menemukan dvd yang sangat jarang dan sdg saya cari2. sangat UAW. terus malemnya nonton reality show bareng keluarga. lengkap. waaww. hal yang sgt jarang gw dapat. haha dan yang paling waw adalah dimana gw hampir ketabrak 3 x hari itu juga. but i survived! thanks God for blessing me! gw ga bisa bayangin gimana kalo gw nabrak lagi untuk kesekian kalinya.

cuma pgn nulis2 ga penting aj sih kali ini.
oke deh ne'. bye. (gay bgt ga sih gw ngomongnya haha)

well , this is 50 questions that would make you think, and i am gonna answer all of them. according to me.

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
=i dont know yet, bcs but i absolutely will not be a teenager! being teenager is not as fun as you heard. seriously.

Which is worse, failing or never trying?
= the worst is when we tried but then we failed.

If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
=i often questioned myself like this and think its because, the day we born is the last day we are truly free.

When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
= yes. because something needs to be straighten out than it should.

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
= i would change myself first. i think everybody wants to change the world but nobody wants to change :| how come?

If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
= making smile on people's faces.

Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
=yes i do what i try to believe in

If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
= i wont do the routine.

To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
= mmm..

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
= doing the right things, because sometimes is not get along with what we want.

You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
= oh really? so have you ever trying to be her friends? because i have and i apparently dont agree with your opinion. you should try.

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
= err, i am not good at this.

Would you break the law to save a loved one?
= of course. i always reak it even not for the one i love.

Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
= yesssssssss, i think creativity is always coming from insanity.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
= the way i eat. its a bit different, still normal but you'll find the different if you notice it.

How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
= it might because of 2 reasons. first, we have a different taste and passions each other. 2nd. i have a different taste with other people.

What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
= yes, im holding something that i need to let go of. why? because i believe it will be true somehow, someday. and i really want to ...

If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
= absolutely, London. why? because its my favorite country since i know the world.

Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
= yeah!

Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
= joyful simpleton. being genius is a scary things.

Why are you, you?
= because i am what i am

Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
= yes.

Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
= losing touch with a good friend that lives near me. pathetic.

What are you most grateful for?
= my mind.

Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
= hard question. lose all of my old memories and then make a new one :D

Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
= depends on how big our heart.

Has your greatest fear ever come true?
= thankfully, no for the greatest one but i have ever had.

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
= a bit.

What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
= skip.

At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
= alive?

If not now, then when?
= someday.

If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
= nothing but my time.

Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
= yes.

Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
= haha because basically, people are in vain that they are wanting some peace but they just dont understand what peace is truly means.

Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
= yes its possible.

If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
= depends on what my job :D

Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
= of course more work. its something that people are rarely got.

Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
= oh yeah.

When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
= can you just not asking me 'when' bcs im really bad at memorizing :|

If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
= oh noo, i would gather them all now!

Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
= no wayy, i am not that easy.

What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
= its really different.being alive is just living doing routines without knowing something you really want or what you live for.

When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
= everytime :)

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
= because we dont know that mistakes bring something good. we hate to be failed.

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
= ha-ha its my wildest thoughts.

When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
= just now.

What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
= may.. be.

In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
= no. no. no. as i said i am bad at memories.

Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
= i am making them for myself :|

kutemukan dirimu bahagia.

merah : jujur aku tak kuasaa, saat terakhir ku genggam tanganmuuu
biru : namun yang pasti terjadi, kita mungkin tak bersama lagi.

merah pun berair.

just a small note

is it okay if i miss you, like now?
because i often feel guilty if i got myself missing you.
i feel like i am not supposed to feel that way anymore.
i should move the fuck on like you said
i try like so hard until i close all the doors
and let no one to knock it or even open it
sometimes i want to slap myself when i caught myself thinking of you
the memories just suddenly across my mind and then i feel so many sensation, like terribly sad even bliss become one.
just by thinking of you.
i know i know i am wrong!
please please, understand me that i am not that easy.
even you already did the rudest way to me
even you are totally over me
but its just not that simple.

tambler.

siang siang lagi tumbling, tiba2...

ade gw : gw dah bikin dong, itu. (sambil nunjuk dekstop gw)
gw : apaan?
ade gw : ituuu (sambil nunjuk dekstop yang sedang bergamar cowo berkaos putih. gw bingung.)
gw : apaan sih?
ade gw : ituuuu! tum. (tolong yaaa! tum! bukan dibaca tam! tumpah lo kata??!)
gw : ... ( *nyadar* tumblr? bwahahahaha!)
ade gw : apa sih bacanya?
gw : ... (gamau jawab)

oh ade ku, mengapa kau bodoh sok sekali! pake ikut2an bikin tumblr, baca tumblr aja ga bisa lo! haha

bo to the ringggggggg

Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
I don’t like anyone rn

What on your body is hurting or bothering you?
my bangs. its bothering me much but i cant cut it off bcs it would look weird on me w/o any bangs.

What was your last thought before going to bed last nite?
phoenix.. tomorrow i'll search their video on youtube... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

What are you listening to?
now? nothing.

What’s something you’re not looking forward to?
my brother?

Where do you think your best friend is right now?
their house

Have you kissed anybody in the last 5 days?
no

Sex on the first date?
nah

Kiss on the first date?
yes

Is there one person you want to be with right now?
no

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
for now, no.

Is there something you would like to say to someone?
I’m not so sure about that

What are three things you did today?
doing my geography test, doing my 2nd geography test, doing my civic test. what a great day.

Would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
my bed is everything. but i'd love to sleep at theirs

What is your favorite kind of gum?
mint!

What is on your wrists right now?
nothing -____-

Do you hate when people call you when you’re sleeping?
YAA!!!

Ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
yes

Who’s the biggest slut you know?
ha-ha. idk.

Does anyone have strong feelings for you?
I’d be surprised if that was the case

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
ya

Have you ever wasted your time on someone?
yes

Can you do the alphabet in sign language?
nope

How long have you had MySpace?
i hv no ms

How have you felt today?
-------------

You receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
clothes, i need some new shirt now.

What is wrong with you right now?
I’m uncreative and bored >:( hopeless.

Is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?
always

Would you rather have Starbucks or Jamba Juice right now?
Starbucks

Why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?
because

How late did you stay up last nite and why?
i forgot

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
just now

What were you doing an hour ago?
eating

What are you looking forward to in the next month?
which is January again, absolutely nothing.

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
only a bit

Are you wearing jeans right now?
no

Are you a patient person?
I can be

Favorite color?
i used to like green

Are you missing someone?
yes

Did you have a dream last nite?
not sure but I think yeah

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
normal pants?

If someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
well..

Do you love anyone who is not related to you?
yes

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
yes

Do you like meeting new people?
when I’m in the mood for it

Are you afraid of falling in love?
hah, for now, i dont want to fall in love with anyone. it doesnt mean im afraid right/ :|

Ever liked someone older than you?
yep

Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
yeah

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
yes

parfum bikin wangi. (YAIYALAH MARGAAA -kehabisan ide buat judul mode on-)

hari ini jangan heran kalau lorong ruang bahasa 1 sampe bahasa 3 itu agak wangi2 mayat gimanaaa gitu hahahaha

karena oh karena tadi pagi, sewaktu Shella sedang membuka lapak baru nya (jual parfum, gan)
dan saat gw mau ngeliat Tommy Hilfiger womennya si Titi yang resmi dia beli dr Shella,

tiba2 PRANGG!! parfum itu meluncur dengan indahnya dr mulut kardusnya.

parfum baru yang belum diperawani itu hancur sudah berkeping2 berbaur dengan lantai
dan ga enaknya, parfumnya tumpah dan membasahi pantat tumping yang sedang duduk di lantai dan dekat dgn TKP

hahahaha
PANTAT TUMPING BAU KETEK CEWE HIIIII (yah kepencet caps lock nya, males ganti)

but, i feel so sorry bout your perfume tii, dont worry i'll change it.

gara2 lapak shella juga nih, gw yakin kelas 12 IPS 1 bakal menang nominasi kelas terbinal & cabul terwangi.
great job , Shell. hahaha

argh i desperately want to watch this movie

Stéphanie: Why me?
Stephane: Because everyone else is boring. And because you are different.You don't like me,Stèphanie.

Stephane: It's like touching your penis with your left hand.
Stéphanie: I don't have a penis.
Stephane: But you have a left hand.

so, reach it.

hoam.
i hate this weekend. its exam weekend and everyday for a week, i should be doing 3 tests in a day.
3, folks. the subject doesnt matter for me but what i hate is its spending more time than it should.

and today i am so mad with my principal. i lost my respect to her. she's doesnt credible for being a principal i guess.
darn.

so, here i am, i supposed to study math but by looking my 10th grade math notes is already making me sick!

you know what, people?
i promise to you, someday i'll be a backpacker and go trough this bally world.
you know why? bcs i am always wondering since i was kid, why did i get here? why was i born in Indonesia?
i mean, i know Indonesia is beautiful or whatever, but its just doesnt make sense for me.
i dont know why God put me in here. why did He pick me? or Indonesia? is He using a pin and aim it randomly to world map while creating me?

and i just think that there's a place that much more beautiful than here.
and someday, i have to check it out!!!!!!!
i have to.
this is my dream. this is my purpose. this is aim.

17

today is my best friend's day.
yeay! today she is already 17th!

HAPPY HAPPY 17TH, TITUUTT (idk if you remembered it or not but i gave you this nickname) :)
best wishes and lots of luck for this upcoming year! woot woot.

(i would really give you this if i know where to find it)

(this is the birthday girl.i grabbed this one bcs this is my fave)

she is a big lovely girl.
i like and even love her.
she is funny
she is childish yet mature
she is incredible thing :)
she is lovely (did i mention that?)
she is loud
she is freaaakk
she likes pretend to pick up the phone and say "halo" using anything on her hand at that time (even using her hairrr)
she likes to make funny sounds ( the 'spontan jahe' solo guitar is my favorite)
she has the longest tongue i've ever seen
she loves her family
she likes to write 'eau' on any paper she had
she hates the smell of 'terasi'
she is so random
she often said something funny
we like to pretend that i am in London and she is in Paris while chatting, so we would like to ask each other "how are you? how's London/Paris?" even actually we're not
we have something in common
we have same feelings

so for this year, i hope she will find another guy to stick with
i hope she'll get accepted in University of Indonesia
i hope she will be more mature
i hope God bless her and her family

(umm actually i am not good at making greetings)

soo, once again.

HAPPY 17TH

PS : the gift is coming soon

xoxo,

m.

God put some magic while creating Kelly Smith's hand, i think.

she is Kelly Smith. yeah, the creator of those amazing illustration. and i adore her ( i wonder if she is probably a man) work. all of them. fantastic i have to say. and he gives me so many inspiration. but yeah i know i could never draw like Kelly bcs we have a different kind of style. i couldn't draw as immaculate as her.
never.
(rapiiiih banget masya olooohh :|)

you can kill with those heels, omg.

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

i found this interesting. and i'll read it someday.

1. If you are right handed, you will tend to chew your food on your right side. If you are left handed, you will tend to chew your food on your left side.

2. If you stop getting thirsty, you need to drink more water. For when a human body is dehydrated, its thirst mechanism shuts off.

3. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.

4. Your tongue is germ free only if it is pink. If it is white there is a thin film of bacteria on it.

5. The Mercedes-Benz motto is “Das Beste oder Nichts” meaning “the best or nothing”.

6. The Titanic was the first ship to use the SOS signal.

7. The pupil of the eye expands as much as 45 percent when a person looks at something pleasing.

8. The average person who stops smoking requires one hour less sleep a night.

9. Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day.

10. The roar that we hear when we place a seashell next to our ear is not the ocean, but rather the sound of blood surging through the veins in the ear.

11. Dalmatians are born without spots.

12. Bats always turn left when exiting a cave.

13. The ‘v’ in the name of a court case does not stand for ‘versus’, but for ‘and’ (in civil proceedings) or ‘against’ (in criminal proceedings).

14. Men’s shirts have the buttons on the right, but women’s shirts have the buttons on the left.

15. The owl is the only bird to drop its upper eyelid to wink. All other birds raise their lower eyelids.

16. The reason honey is so easy to digest is that it’s already been digested by a bee.

17. Roosters cannot crow if they cannot extend their necks.

18. The color blue has a calming effect. It causes the brain to release calming hormones.

19. Every time you sneeze some of your brain cells die.

20. Your left lung is smaller than your right lung to make room for your heart.

21. The verb “cleave” is the only English word with two synonyms which are antonyms of each other: adhere and separate.

22. When you blush, the lining of your stomach also turns red.

23. When hippos are upset, their sweat turns red.

24. The first Harley Davidson motorcycle was built in 1903, and used a tomato can for a carburetor.

25. The lion that roars in the MGM logo is named Volney.

26. Google is actually the common name for a number with a million zeros.

27. Switching letters is called spoonerism. For example, saying jag of Flapan, instead of flag of Japan.

28. It cost 7 million dollars to build the Titanic and 200 million to make a film about it.

29. The attachment of the human skin to muscles is what causes dimples.

30. There are 1,792 steps to the top of the Eiffel Tower.

31. The sound you hear when you crack your knuckles is actually the sound of nitrogen gas bubbles bursting.

32. Human hair and fingernails continue to grow after death.

33. It takes about 20 seconds for a red blood cell to circle the whole body.

34. The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.

35. Most soccer players run 7 miles in a game.

36. The only part of the body that has no blood supply is the cornea in the eye. It takes in oxygen directly from the air.

37. Every day 200 million couples make love, 400,000 babies are born, and 140,000 people die.

38. In most watch advertisements the time displayed on the watch is 10:10 because then the arms frame the brand of the watch (and make it look like it is smiling).

39. Colgate faced big obstacle marketing toothpaste in Spanish speaking countries. Colgate translates into the command “go hang yourself.”

40. The only 2 animals that can see behind itself without turning its head are the rabbit and the parrot.

41. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair.

42. The average person laughs 13 times a day.

43. Do you know the names of the three wise monkeys? They are:Mizaru(See no evil), Mikazaru(Hear no evil), and Mazaru(Speak no evil)

44. Women blink nearly twice as much as men.

45. German Shepherds bite humans more than any other breed of dog.

46. Large kangaroos cover more than 30 feet with each jump.

47. Whip makes a cracking sound because its tip moves faster than the speed of sound.

48. Two animal rights protesters were protesting at the cruelty of sending pigs to a slaughterhouse in Bonn. Suddenly the pigs, all two thousand of them, escaped through a broken fence and stampeded, trampling the two hapless protesters to death.

49. If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural cause.

50. The human heart creates enough pressure while pumping to squirt blood 30 feet!!

why?

The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.

A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.

I should've known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.

Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?

everything i said and did wasn't just deceiving
and your calm hard face, makes me wish that i was never brought into this place.

and someday, i promise i'll be gone.

and i was wasting my life just thinking of you.
maybe its just me, couldn't you believe?

personal crisis

i am tired and so sick of this effing stuff.
you guys, should know how i keep thinking that we are really something to keep for.



PS : this is the first personal post since long time ago. and actually i want to post some more words but i just cant find a good way to say.
i only can say this.

sama tapi tak serupa

nice try , old man.