Monday 31 January 2011

thoughts #184

"i am born to prove they're wrong. to prove everything you know is wrong."

thoughts #183

"people come to me. and ask for my advices. the good thing is, they see me health and sane enough to give them advice. to hear what i think. thank god. they didnt know."

hello kitty, katakanlah IP ku berapa.....

(click to enlarge it)

so, my final score is finally out. ive been waiting for such a long time :/
anyway the result isnt bad, actually quite good. i can still join 'senat' if i wanted to. but, it actually slaps me.
2,9. i mean, i can do better than that. it almost 3 if i tried harder. haha but its ok. i am not such a score-freak.
but, what i am thank god for is, i didnt get any D :D
mmm, but, i got C's on my Jornalist and Communication, which aree, two major subjects for broadcasting hahah
but i still can choose it.
and i got A's on my Law and PR, they're really great if wanted to take PR later. i stick to my plan.

Saturday 29 January 2011

i capture moments.

kemaren, saya menanyakan diri saya sendiri. apa gaya saya? apa benang merah dari setiap karya saya?

setelah tadi sore berbincang dan bertukar pikiran sedikit dengan kawan lama, bung dudi/oyoy hihi, akhirnya i got the answer.

i asked him, whats my style from his point of view, but he asked me back. i barely remember how was the question but the only thing i got, he asking me what i keep doing in every photoshoot?

so i answer, maybe i always candid. i capture their motion bcs it seems more real to me. more honest.
and he said, that's what i thought too.

maybe i cant stick to one tone or one theme or one style. but in every single shoot i took, i mostly capture motion. i capture feelings. i candid my model. my model isnt just pose, but i insist them to move.

that's it.

sehinnga, kata bung dudi, gambar saya 'ga bisa diem'. bergerak. motionnya kelihatan. well, ga semua but mostly.
dan emang, di setiap foto2 yang saya ciptakan, saat memfoto saya emang cenderung foto saat mereka ga sadar (candid) ato saat mrk bergerak. i want honest expression.
then when, my model asked me how should they pose, i will like.. err, get confused. then i will tell them to move. like dancing. or jumping. or anything.

THAT'S MY STYLE. thanks dude for the brainstorming. :)

Thursday 27 January 2011

let's go with life after high school.

okay, some say college's sucks. some say college's great.
well for me, i gotta say, college's isnt that interesting yet.

i mean, the good thing is, my college doesnt gimme a dozen of homeworks and assignments like others do. well, if they were then i am the only one didnt feel so. bcs since i was in high school i never feel the craziness of lots of assignments. art of procrastinating though.
buut, i cant deal with the people inside.
i mean they're nice. but i dont want nice people. i want people like me who can balance my.. (what we called it, freakishness?) ok you named it. my personality. my thoguhts. who can change thoughts with mine. who can inspire me moree. but, no one can, yet.

i know among those 1k-ish people there must be at least, one or two who has the same thing with me. and i cant barely wait to meet them. i mean, my neighbourhood now is.. weird. they're so average. and they cant deal with my taste and instead, they call me tasteless and weird. ha-ha what an irony.


i am officially diamond in the mud, yo.

Wednesday 26 January 2011

my top 5 animals

  1. owl
  2. wolf
  3. deer
  4. polar bear
  5. hamster

Tuesday 25 January 2011

we actually learn

someday, i tweet like this.
@: bisa dikatakan gue haus ilmu tapi ga suka belajar. i learn. i dont study.

then tomorrow morning, my uni friend reply like this.
@jejeje**** Plin plan brartii RT @: bisa dikatakan gue haus ilmu tapi ga suka belajar. i learn. i dont study.
kok gue agak kesel ya. kayaknya lo juga ga ngerti deh ngebedain learn and study :) it's different things to me. and i wont waste my time to explain it. 
btw, agak irresponsible ya kalo gue akhiri postingan kali ini gni aja. mgkn sebagian dr lo jg bertanya apa bedanya emang learn sm study.
berdasarkan dictionary dot com;
learn ;
–verb (used with object)
1.to acquire knowledge of or skill in by study, instruction, or experience: to learn french; to learn to ski.
2.to become informed of or acquainted with; ascertain: to learn the truth.
3.to memorize: He learned the poem so he could recite it at the dinner.
4.to gain (a habit, mannerism, etc.) by experience, exposure to example, or the like; acquire: She learnedpatience from her father.
5.(of a device or machine, esp. a computer) to perform an analogue of human learning with artificial intelligence.
6.Nonstandard . to instruct in; teach.
study; 
noun, plural stud·ies, verb, stud·ied, stud·y·ing. 
–noun
1.application of the mind to the acquisition of knowledge, as by reading, investigation, or reflection: long hours of study.
2.the cultivation of a particular branch of learning, science, or art: the study of law.
3.Often, studies. a personal effort to gain knowledge: to pursue one's studies.
i think i dont have to explain much more.

WHY SO SERIOUS?

di timeline gue penuh adek2 kelas yang akan menghadapi try out besok.
cemungudh adek2!

mengingat dulu gue try out, suram banget. gue ga pernah belajar. krn menurut gue, try out untuk menguji kemaampuan kita sejauh mana. jadi buat apa belajar? ya kan? yak.

kalian jangan terpaku. jangan jadi beban, nilai tuh cum angka. ga bikin masa depan kalian pasti suram kalo dapet 5.

pas ujian pun gue hanya mengulang hal2 yang gue ga bisa pas try out. gue kayak udah terllau muak buat belajar lagi. kayaknya enough gue dicekoki sama hal yang sama berulang-ulang selama 3 tahun. kalo bisa muntah di tempat, muntah kali gue.

anyway, tapi gue kangen sama masa-masa itu. SMA.
kangen di kasih nonton film super jadul dan konyol tentang pelajarn bersangkutan yang dibuat TPI sama lembaga pendidikan. katanya lembaga pendidikan, kok ga ngikutin perkembangan anak jaman skg bgt ya? haha jadi selama film itu diputer, bukannya merhatiin dan ngerti, malah sibuk ngetawain kekolotan film itu.

trus kangen belajar bareng pas TO di rumah Rama. hhahaha dengan perjalan superb seru layaknya bolang YANG SEMPAT NYASAR KE SAWAH ORANG DN NGELEWATIN RUMAH BLKG ORANG. DAN RUMAH YANG BERTULISAN "RUMAH INI TIDAK DIJUAL." HAHAHAHHA dengan membawa 2 kantong besar berisi makan siang anak2 yang dibeli di warteg NIKI :') yang rame2nya belajar bareng dan ujungn2nya menajajni setiap abang yang lewat di rumah Rama hahahahha kita kayak anak panti hihih

kangen ketawa ketiwi sebelum ujian.

kangen RETRET! gimana chaosnya kamar gue dan kamar sebelah krn isinya anak freak smuaaaaa. dan gimana APEKNYA BAU KAMAR *PEEEP* karena bau minyak telon, ketek, balsem, sama parfum JADI SATU HAHAHHA

kangen anak2 kelas sos 1. sangat. dengan cakwe dan kue bantal gratis shella tiap pagii, rebutan makanan ama anes, dijajanin anes, even dicakin smaa voltaa! hahaah kangen ngerasain ilusi-gempa-lokal bareng acengg hhhahaha

tapi ga kangen peltam. asli. peltam tuh cuma nyita waktu, banyak yang ga dateng, malesin karena itu hari sabtu dan ampe siang. ZZ

ANYWAY, meskipun SMA lo ga gaul seantero Jakarta, walaupun anak2 di SMA lo ga gaul2 bgt, mau se-strict apapun SMA lo, mau lo ga bisa mengalami yang namanya bolos tiap hari, rok sepan ato kaos kaki pendek sepatu warna warni, lo tetep akan kangen sama SMA lo nantinya.

about today's wisdom.

sepanjang perjalanan hari ini, saya terus berpikir.
apa style dari karya2 saya? apa yang menjadi benang merahnya? menurut saya, setiap seniman (yang diingat orang banyak) pasti memiliki benang merah dari setiap karyanya. gayanya. nafas disetiap karyanya.

dan saya akui, saya masih jauh dari situ, saya masih mencari.
selama ini, saya masih membunglon. saya bisa jadi apa saja. saya bisa experimental. saya bisaa classy. saya bisa edgy. but most of all, saya bernaung dibawah bendera indie.


maka dari itu, saya harus banyak dan rajin2 berkarya. hari ini hari yang sangat inspiratif bagi saya. banyak hal yang saya pelajari hari ini.

seperti, doing your job at last minutes. yaaa selain emang itu kebiasaan procrastinating saya, tapi memang ada baiknya begitu, karena dgn tergencet deadline, otak kita katanya jadi fokus dan lebih aktif untuk berkarya. lain soal kalo cari ide/inspirasi. lakukan jauh2 hari.

lalu, good designer copy ideas, great designer steal.

lalu, ini yang paling nyentuh saya haha : photgraphy isnt sport. there are no rules. SETUJU BGT.
saya benci banget sama orang yang bilang, mendinagn begiin, ilangin itunya, bagusan gada ini, coba begitu. hey it's my point of view, it's my art. how come lo ngejudge ini itu dan menyama ratakan sama punya lo dan yang menurut lo bener? kasian bgt otak lo. terkungkung sama peraturan. >:/
besides, RULE-BREAKER IS MY MIDDLE NAME.

ok. terus..
you really what you think about. start think positive. start think big.

and, dont go to university. go to work. university cuma tempat orang-orang yang gatau mau ngapain dan kemana abis sekolah. kalo lo dah tau lo mau ngapain, then go to work. make it real. unless you need to be formally qualified in that job.

Monday 24 January 2011

that's the problem.

 I AM NOT READY.

thoughts #182

i hate talking to boring guy. or even girl. or anyone who i find it boring. so i guess they are. finding me boring too bcs i didnt say anything to them.
so thats why i am a bit quite. you are boring me, people.
plus, i wont try and  avoid unnecessary  social interaction.

Saturday 22 January 2011

thoughts #181

emang aneh ya kalo sering salah ngetik dan atau kebalik2 klo ngetik? well bad habit dies hard.

come to mama.

1. Bold the names of guys you’d definitely get with.
2. Italicize the names of guys you might get with after a little persuasion.
3. Leave the guys who you’re not attracted to.
4. Put a (?) question mark after the guys you’ve never heard of.
5. Strike the guys you wouldn’t touch with a ten-foot pole.
6. Add 5 more guys to the list.

Jack Barakat
Rupert Grint
Gabe Saporta
Samuel L. Jackson


Hayden Christensen

 Ian Somerhalder
Shia Labeouf
John Hannah?
Patrick Stump


Hugh Grant 
Colin Firth
Nick Santino
Billy Zane
Leonardo Di Caprio
Chris Brown
Vin Diesel
Paul Walker
Ryan Sheckler  ?


James Marsden

 Jonathan Groff
Simon Cowell

Justin Bartha ?
Joe Jonas
Pete Wentz
Bradley Cooper
Elijah Wood
Tobey McGuire
James Franco
Alex Gaskarth


Ben GibbardNick Jonas
Emile Hirsch
Eric Halvorsen
Tom Welling
Sam Worthington



Brandon Routh
Jackson Rathbone
Kanye West
Patrick Cassels ?
Ryan Donowho ?
Steven R. Mcqueen ?
Tyson Ritter?
Ryan Gosling?
Jonathan Bennett ?
Jason Segel

Orlando Bloom
Michael Trevino ?
Matt Lanter
Johnny Depp
Paul Rudd
Bill Hader
Justin Timberlake
Kevin Jonas
Zac Efron
Robert Pattinson
Robert Schawartzman
Jude Law

Matt Prokop ?
Daniel Radcliffe
Tom Felton
William Moseley?
Josh Montgomery
Christian Bale
Corbin Bleu?
Ryan Ross
Taylor Lautner
Ed Westwick
Justin Bieber
Michael Brun
David Henrie
Josh Ocean ?
Martin Johnson
Paul Digiovanni

John Stamos
Kevin Smith
Shane Dawson
Jon Gosselin
Davedays ?
Stephen Gomez ?
Ricky Martin
Ben Affleck



Jared Leto
Chris Pine
Brandon Flowers
Evan Peters ?
Gerard Butler
Ashton Kutcher
David Beckham
Danny Jones
Ricardo Kaka
Paul Wesley
Calvin Harris ?
Kellan Lutz
Tom Hardy
Chris Evans
Jonathan Rhys Meyers
William Beckett
Eric Dane
Kris Allen
Oliver Sykes
Chris Colfer
Adam Lambert
Jared Padalecki
Hugh Jackman
Russell Brand

Robert Downey Jr,
Joseph Gordon-Levitt
Luke Worrall ?
Robert Sheehan
Gaspard Ulliel 
Brad Pitt
Channing Tatum
Levi Johnston
Nicholas Hoult ?
Hunter Parrish ?
Owen Wilson
Chace Crawford
Matthew Morrison
Aaron Johnson
Alex Watson
Chris Cornell
Pierce Brosnan
John Mayer
Lucas Till


Skandar Keynes
 
Penn Badgle
Kevin Mchale
Milo Ventimiglia
Tom Delonge
David Archuletta
Michael Buble 
Ryan Reynolds 
James Bourne
Harry Judd ?
Sebastien Lefebvre ?
Zack Merrick
Dan Flint ?
Adam Levine
Devin Oliver
Jeremy Sumpter
Jeremy Davis
Luke Pasqualino ?
Julian Morris ?


Avan Jogia
Jesse Lacey ?
Vic Fuentes ?
Jake Gyllenhaal
Brian Maddox
Travis Clark
David Blaise
Ben McKenzie
Drake Bell
Adam Brody
Joel Madden
Travis Pastrana
Kyle Burns
Mikey Fuentes
Jaime Preciado
Chistofer Drew
Logan Lerman
Adam Lazzara

Craig Owens
Mitchell Davis
Matt Flyzik
Max Halyer ?
Jensen Ackles
David Boreanaz
Bruno Mars
Fernando Torres
Michael Jackson
Paul McCartney
Criss Angel
Nikki Sixx
Sean Smith
Andy Sixx
Ian Watkins
Dave Annabel
Ryan Seacrest
Paolo Nutini

Kyle Hanagami ?
Adam Sevani
Jim Sturgess
Jon Bon Jovi
Gerard Way
Barack Obama
Julian Wilson
Collin Pharell

Josh Hartnett
Rick Malambri ?
Chord Overstreet ?
Slaughter Joe ?
Usher

David Desrosiers
Chester Bennington
Tom Hanks
Chriss Massoglia
Paul Dano

Matt Bennett
Callum Hann
Remedy Waloni
Josh Radnor
Andrew VanWyngarden

Michael Cera
Ash Stymest
Jack Black
Rowan Atkinson
Charlie McDonald

Friday 21 January 2011

thoughts #180

orang kayak G*yus enaknya diapain ya? kayaknya dipenajra tuh ga cukup deh. leha2 lg iya kali. dipenjara sama macan kali ye? apa setiap rakyat kita kasih telor sebiji buat lemparin ke dia. :3

i got lemons. wanna share?

what will you do if life gives you a lemon?
  1. make lemonade of it.
  2. squeeze them in their eyes!
  3. suck it, eat it, until nothing left, so they'll know IT'S NOTHING BUT ONLY LEMON. 
me? i do suck it. it's bitter and sour in the same time. but, i born with no fear. i hope i can stick with that. 

PS : now i feel like crying.

Thursday 20 January 2011

thoughts #179

btw, yes my mom named me after Thatcher. that's why i am damn tough. and cold hard bitch.
maybe that's why too i wanna go to UK so bad. BCS IT'S RUNNING ON MY BLOODY BLOOD.

someone says..

"Ada pertanyaan di diriku: aku hidup ini mau apa? Mau bikin hits atau bikin musik? Lalu aku putuskan, aku mau bmusik saja" - DanielSahuleka

kalo  saya, saya hidup untuk saya. saya ga mau kerja di kantoran. saya ga mau terikat. saya mau bebas. i do everything i like. i live for myself and i wont please anyone just to impress them.
doain ya.

kalo kamu? hidup untuk apa?

Tuesday 18 January 2011

thoughts #178

OH MY GOD. i shouldnt like someone whom i stalked his tumblr randomly this much.
i really think he is my musical soulmate. damn. and his simple and classic style, i cant bear with it.

Monday 17 January 2011

thoughts #177

wakil rakyat. mereka yang mewakili kita menikmati kemewahan. haha lucunya negeri ini.

thoughts #176

i am Indonesian. and i am loving it.

gue terlahir sebagai keturunan oriental. gue dibesarin dalam keluarga yang kental dengan tradisi asal nenek gue, dan juga dikelilingi sama orang-orang pribumi yang warm dan welcome abis.
thats why gue ga gitu suka orang yang rasis.
i mean, gue cina tapi gue Indonesian indeed. stop playing with races.

dan, satu hal yang membuat gue Indonesia banget adalah, sebenernya, dari kecil, gue suka banget sama Java Culture. kalo bisa tinggal di desa, mau deh gue.
dengan musik gamelan mereka, dengan wayang dan keseniannya. dengan bahasa mereka yang lucu. everything!

ah pokoknya gue suka banget. apalagi kalo suara suling bambu. suasana desa. pinggir sawah. sadap.
mungkin efek ska nonton Wiro ableng pas kecil kali ya. haha

start to love your own culture before it get claimed by others. and in the end we lose our identity.  
tanpa membahas soal keabsenan gue akhir2 ini, gue cuma mau share sedikit.

gue suka ngerasa terbebani sama 1 sifat gue. yaitu terlalu, apa ya? perasa? sensitif?

bukan, bukan yang kalo digampar ato bentak dikit terus gue nangis ato liat sinetron yang tertukar trus gue mewek. bukan.
tapi sejenis, begini, kalo misalnya gue ngeliat orang homeless, anak kecil di terminal yang suka minta2, ato pengamen, ato bapak2 yang udah harusnya duduk di kursi goyang smaa cucu mereka di rumah tapi malah jualan bakso tengah malem.

tuh rasanya miriiiiiiisssss bgt.
asli deh.

rasanya kalo gue punya duit segepok ya, gue ksi deh deh mereka beberapa.
gausa orang deh! kucing aja tuh, kalo ada yang melas minta makan, gue rasanya juga miris. liat anjing budukkan dikit di pinggir warung ngais makanan aja gue suka miris.

rasanya pengen ngasi makanan gue ke mereka. berbagi.
*sigh*

buat kalian ya yang suka ngeluh BB gue rusakk, ganti onyx2 aj dech. minta papa beliin ipad. ato envy sama mereka yang ke Eropa padahal sendirinya baru balik dari Singapur. PLIS.

anyway, mengapa oh mengapa gue terbebani? ya gimana si? gue terlalu peka dan gampang kasihan sama mereka. somehow jd ngerasa bersalah sendiri kalo ga bisa ngasi apa-apa. somehow i feel their pain *lebay*
padahal sendirinya juga ga yang mampu2 bgt hahaha

anyway, intinya, coba kalian sedikit lebih peka sama yang disekitar.
emang kita udah punya nasib masing-masing dari lahir. emang bukan salah kita, mereka begitu. dan probably salah mereka juga mereka begitu.
tapi bukan berarti trus kita menutup mata sama mereka.
karena ga ada salahnya melihat mereka. dan berbagi.

banyak yang punya mata tapi sedikit yang bisa melihat.

Sunday 16 January 2011

thoughts #175

i want a proper goodbye too.

makasih buat Rara yang udah meracuniku dengan ini. :3



in the end, we're all just a cheesy girl who need to chased.

and where the only place to speak is blog.

the worst feeling is when you disapoint people around you, i hate the part when i need to cry it out but i cant. where i need someone to tell all my fucking feelings and thought but i cant.
where i feel so unsafe and haunted by my past and future in the same time. where i cant choose where to step into. where i need my dreams to be true.

where everything is collapsing and i am the one who realising.
where fuck isnt enough at all where you cant promise anything to anyone bcs you dont know how much you got to give it away.

when was the last time you want something so bad? i am glad that i had ever want something (in my case, osmeone) so bad and i got him, at least almost.
and i was like thinking why the hell did i do until i got there? and  whatever did i do until i almost got there, i want to do it again! and make it perfect. yes i am slightly perfectionist.

FUCK.

Saturday 15 January 2011

thoughts #174

"CAUSE IM HAVING A GOOD TIME WITH YOU, I AM TELLING YOU. including in my dream."

todays random post.

hari iniii, membuktikan bahwa semua ketakutan itu cuma ada di pkirian kita doang. cuma disitu. it's unreal. it's never real until we create it. meski terkadang, ketakutan itu begitu nyata.

anyhooo, lucunya, hari ini, ketika sedang sendirian bersama laptop ditengah menunggu seseorang di Mcd, tiba2, didekati seorang anak, yahh about 2 years old lah. dia lsg mainin track mouse di latop saya. ngeklik asal. trus sambil bergumama sendiri, enath apa.

awalnya kaget, wets anak sape nih! asik bgt mainin latop gue. tapi yauda saya biarin aja. hahah ya soalnya sepertinya dia seru, ga mau main sm perosotan. ga bs diem. dia klik asal ini itu. dan saya baru nyadar, tuh anak bergumam "menulis, menulis, menulis, menulis" begitu terus.

oh ya saya sempat webcam-in dia kok. cuma lg males mengunduh. hmm later yaa. i dont promise.

lalu dia akan pergi, klo bosan, dan dtg lg liatin saya, lalu asal mencet lalu pergi. bgtu seterusnya. ibunya? asik makan. sebentar2 si emang nyamperin si bocah ini, sambil bilang, janagn dek. kasian TANTEnya lg kerja.

saya tersinggung, tan. i'm only 18th tan.

Friday 7 January 2011

no one can guarantee this but, it's worth to.

@: If a girl is stupid enough to love you after you broke her heart, I guarantee you, she is the one. 

Thursday 6 January 2011

thoughts #173

i think every gas station should be provided with music. i mean, isnt it so boring and awkward waiting your gasoline being filled? - @theorangekoala

so, why not?

anda smua pasti tau kan hobi anak2 jaman sekarang, nongkrong di supermarket non-lokal. yang klo ga tujuh-sebelas, ya ce-ka.
(kayaknya) kalo nongkrong disana berasa gaul sejagad.
ya ga sih?

sebelumnya, saya jelaskan, saya bukan orang yang suka banget menghabiskan waktu saya disana, tapi bukan jg orang yang anti nongkrong disana. emang saya akui, saya suka. kenapa? banyak yang bening. :malu

but, i like the idea of making the supermarket as a cool place to hang out.
i mean, nemuin beberapa tweet yang sedkit menyinggung dan terheran-heran sama fenomena anak jaman skg.

nongkrong kok ya di supermarket. kenapa mesti supermarket?
tanya mereka.

sekarang saya tanya, emang mesti nongkrong dimana? warung kopi? pinggir jalan? restoran junk food yang ngerusak badan? kuburan? ato wc? (yang terakir jayus)
ya kan?
jadi kenapa mesti heran kenapa nongrong di supermarket?
and i smell denials in their tweets.

besides, i like being in supermarket even though it's not the coolest one.

Monday 3 January 2011

THIS.

thoughts #172

someday, i have to release my own book. we should.

what will you do in 2011?

  1. growing my hair and not being seduced easily to cut it off. 
  2. get a new glasses
  3. taking more pictures.
  4. get a new job.
  5. collect money.
  6. sleep under 12am.
  7. get more new friends.
  8. dye my hair. if i think it's long enough.
  9. less brunch-ing!
  10. buy HIMYM season 6.
  11. stop stalking them.
  12. get a new phone.
  13. explore things around me.
  14. draw more.
  15. give my CV to radio station. perhaps.

gatel.

pengen potong rambut. pixie hair cut.
tahan Ga. tahun depan aja yaa.

Sunday 2 January 2011

"...karena kamu, happy endingku"




i love everything in this video clip. siapa sih yang buat? bagus deh :)

saya cuma punya satu resolusi yang pasti

mahir bawa mobil! *ga mau kalah mode on*
men, im going on 19th this February and i still cant drive manual car well?? shame on me!

my neighbour, he's like at 9th grade, he can drive! even it's matic car, but who cares!

siap2 Jakarta, bakal ada 1 pembalap lagi tahun ini meluncur ke ibukota!

oia, gue mau cerita dikittt aja ttg hr ini.
so i was going to church today. and suddenly, tmn bokap gue nyamperin, nanya gue bisa dipake ga.
EITS! mkr apa lo smua hayo?
maksudnya gue bs ga kalo dipake buat jd dokumentasi gtu? trus nanya gue mau dibayar brp..

gue langsung ceneng lah ampe jidat. klo gni kejadiannya tiap gue ke gereja ya pasti gue rajin haha
anyway gue blg aja, 10 jt om.
GA DENG. haha gue cm blg.. hm gmn ya om (krn jrg dibayar :melas) saya bingung haha soalnya temen sih *berdalih biar kelihatan pro dan ga amatiran*

yauda, dia blg ntr mau dikabarin lg. acaranya entar sore, buat natalan lingkungan gtu. brangkat om.

tunggu punya tunggu, dah jam 3 kok ga nelpon2 si om. duh gengges deh. unyu :3
yauda bokap gue nelpon, kan fren noh.
eh ktnya ga jd. bukan gue doang yg ga jd disuruh moto2. sekalain acaranya jg ga jd.
JEGER.

nih om boong apa gmn? kok bs bgt gtu ada acr ga jd. seakan2 itu acr dadakan sekedar kumpul2 kebo

sekejap, kau hancurkan hatiku om. (backsound d'masip playing)

gimana ga hancur hatiku om! tdnya mau gue mnt 3 jt! ga deng. intinya gue lg butuh duit tp tb2 om batalin! AAAAH! RAWR!

dan senano detik, gue ngerasa, BIKIN MAJALAH AJA DH GUA YOK! kesel klo bergantung sm org. biar org yang bergantung smaa gue! nunggu telpon dr gue! nunggu gue bayar!

dah enough curcolsnya. betex.

Saturday 1 January 2011

first day in MMXI

well, i am going to tell you what ive done in in first day of my 2011.
however lame it is. okay?

so, today im just going to my cousin's house as usually, and gathering with my whole big family.
at firat i was like so lazy.
but somehow, when i came, i got excited. when i saw my new baby cousins, Clement. and my second smallest cousins, Dhea. she's 4 y/o.
and i was kind of.. dissaponted for not bringing my camera to capture their cuteness.
i played with them all day long.

and, it makes me realize, how cute i was. haha j/k. i was wondering, someday i am gonna be mum. maybe.
i'm just wondering.. i mean, seeing my youngest aunt who has same level of  ignorance like me, watching her been a sophomore, married, until now having a baby, taking care of her baby. i was like..
omg. indescribable.

it's like i'm seeing my future right in front of my eyes.

PLUS.
my mom found this slipped inside my sociology book. and asking me whose that USG scanned photo. i was like.. idk mom i swear it wasnt mine! hahahahah


 i belive it's kind of sign. am i gonna have a baby this year? AMIT2 JGN SKG. punya pacar dulu dah.

CONCLUSION : I AM SEEING MY FUTURE IN THE FIRST DAY OF 2011.