i enjoy silence. i enjoy that nobody understands me. i enjoy things dont get along with my expectation. i enjoy surprise. i enjoy the hurt i feel. but sometimes i dont enjoy people around me. i dont feel like they're real. they are too fake, wearing shit masks. i sort of feel like i want to take control of them. teach them how they supposed to behave. tutor them like what i want. but i cant. no one can.
maybe i am egoist.
when i turn into silence, it means i want you all to shut the f* up but i cant just straightly insist you so, so i prefer to be shut up instead of you.
silence is gold. why? because, empty barrels have a loud noise. all mouth no trouser.
i should be more ignorant.