i smile , doesnt mean its okay or wheter its not hurting me
i laugh , doesnt mean its funny.
i dont see doesnt mean, i dont know.
i dont talk , doesnt mean, im okay.
i dont know, doesnt mean i'm fool.
i cry, doesnt mean i hate you.
i walk away, doesnt mean i let it.
i keep silent doesnt mean its nothing (happened)
i cant do that, doesnt mean im not trying.
im preteding, doesnt mean im lying.
so why am i keep pretending all this crap?
because im not such a other girl that easily to show what she thinks, feels, or watev.
and easily to cry when she wants.
and easily to show what she truly feels.
and easily to share all.
and easily to show her careness to the one she cares of.
and easily to say what she wants to.
and easily to hate someone who already, hurt her emotionally or physically.
im not that easy.
sometimes i love to be quiet.and i love when someone is not asking me, what does make me so quiet.
because you know what? sometimes, i do. and i dont have reason to tell why.
because i love the moment when im alone with my scramble rumble thoughts
until someone catches up my attention.
and one thing, i dont ask all of you, to understand me.
because i know, no one can, or even want.
and i know, everyone's different. and complicated in our own way.
so, why do you have to understand me when i cant even understand you, them, those, world, reality.
thats why im not asking or sigh for it.
ah, what am i talking about? i hate this part when i just write straight from my mind without sorting it before.
because sometimes it sounds so unimportant , though.
*argh i hate to study. hmpph. not in the mood for it.